Here, I want to express some observations, discovered along my journey. Can't save myself, only God can do that, He chooses whom He will (the elect), do I know if I've been chosen? No. Can't tell who has been or not. This is the way its done, so we can take no credit at all. We do what we do out of gratitude and to show respect and to honor Him. Strange, when I've prayed, hear no voices but receive the help asked for. No longer study too much, a verse springs to mind" I shall write into their hearts, they will no longer need to be taught" not an exact quote, but the idea is there, so far its worked for me. Its gone to a very personal level. Knowing I don't deserve anything is both wnderful and grevious. But I firmly believe He hears me. This asking business is difficult. Taking it deeper is a good way, if only I could learn to ask what He thinks before I start things,then dependency would be complete.Always to display wisdom, ts not just what my heart feels but also my brain, He did'nt make or want me to be an idiot either. Looking at the big picture helps my understanding. Solomon in all his wisdom, in the end fell for a woman and ended badly. The cmbinations we carry determines a lot, as weak and strong as heart and mind as intelligence and emotions, one of them is not the answer, both complete it.