I do not know if anyone will understand what I am about to say but it has been on my mind for over an hour now.
I am in is what God wanted because in this situation I am learning to lean more on Him and less on myself and those around me. I am begining to understand why I thought God had turned His back on me when my life seemed the darkest. It is because when we are in our darkest hours some of us lose our sight of who and where God is. Then when the fog starts lifting we start seeing better and we focus better and we see that He never left us we were just blind to the lies of the enemy.
I pray that whoever reads this and they are going through this or know someone that is. That they are touched enough to know they are not alone and that God is right there in the midst of their situation because Christ dwells within us so therefore we carried Him into the situation and He will not leave you there by yourself He will hold you throughout the situation until you receive the upgrade into a bigger glory then before.