The above title says alot about my initial hesitation in coming to the Lord. Now let me explain what I mean by that statement. I know that there are those reading this blog that may feel as I did in the past; that they are not worthy to take part in this calling from the Lord. This is something that I struggled with for too long of a time, and I want to make it known to you, so that you could possibly avoid this particular trap.
But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. - Romans 5:8
As I began to seek the Lord and His direction for my life, I would find myself being side tracked by my fleshly feelings. I would soon lose my focus on Him and shift my focus on my own inadequacies and shortcomings. This was a very destructive practice, as it prevented me from understanding the truth; that He loved me and had a calling for my life.
If you ever listened to the radio show (Tough Love), you may have heard me speak about my struggles. I could write a book or two or three on my testimony alone, but that isn't something that I'm led to do at this time. So I will spare you with all the details, because I want the focus to remain on the Lord and the message associated with prayer walking.
The important point to understand is that I truly “struggled” with this calling. What I have come to realize is that I allowed this to happen for a host of reasons. First, I had not fully surrendered to the Lord. Secondly, I most certainly did not have a faith built upon solid rock. Thirdly, I did not have that true personal relationship that the Lord desired me to have with Him. That beautiful relationship was one in which I would spend time with a loving God in fellowship and communion. These are topics that I will get into later in the book as they are important and must be addressed from a Biblical viewpoint.
During my time of struggle, the Lord put me in front of the “spiritual mirror” and had me ask myself a rather important and essential question; “Do I look like Jesus Christ or not?” Each time the answer was the same; “No!” But as I continued to seek the Lord and develop that relationship with him, my answer out of frustration changed to an answer that was born out of joy. Although the answer remained “no,” a smile would come upon my face, because I started to see a change in my life. I began to look more like Jesus then I did the day before. Amen.
I must also mention that the conviction that I felt each day, when looking into that mirror, now encompassed a sense of joy. As I looked in that mirror I now experienced both conviction and love; for the Lord was molding me into His image. And when I looked deeply into that mirror I began to discover that Jesus was standing right along side of me. He truly loved me
Friends, the Lord is calling you to something greater than yourself. It's time to stop putting yourself down. Its time to stop falling for the lies of satan. And its certainly time to stop playing the role of a victim. The Lord is giving all of us an opportunity to turn from our evil ways and surrender. Fully surrender to Him and live, or live a life for the world which only leads to heartbreak and destruction.
“Let us search and try our ways, and turn again to the Lord. Let us lift up our heart with our hands unto God
in the heavens.” - Lamentations 4:40-41
I want you now to ask yourself these very important questions. These are questions that I had to ask myself. You may not like the answers to these questions initially, but know that the Lord is with you, and He will prepare those who diligently seek Him.
Are you right with your God?
Have you fully surrendered to the Lord?
Do you believe that Jesus is who He says He is?
Do you look like Jesus or not?
I want to elaborate a little more about the “spiritual mirror” story and how this practice has become part of my daily walk. Each morning I faithfully stand in front of the mirror and take a “hard” look at myself. When I initially started this routine, I would ask myself all the above questions. However, as time passed by the questions boiled down to one main question: “Do I look like Jesus Christ or not?”
When I initially started this, I experienced bouts of frustration and disappointment because I was not right with God. I had not fully surrendered to Him; as I was still walking my own walk. I read the Bible. I understood it to be the word of God. But I didn't truly didn't believe that Jesus is who He said He is; and that was the result of a lacking personal relationship with Him. With that being said; a frown would come upon my face as I stared in that mirror, because I most certainly didn't look like Jesus Christ.
Some of you may be experiencing the frustration that I faced during my early walk with the Lord. What I have come to understand is that when I was looking into that mirror, my focus was on “ME.” That contributed to me seeing my problems and inadequacies through fleshly eyes. I wanted to fix my own problems instead of looking to the one who would cleanse me of my sins; JESUS.
I tell you this so that you don't make the same mistakes that I did. When you are in front of that spiritual mirror look beyond yourself. Look to the word of God; which is convicting yet loving. I know this to be true because God's word convicted me and loved me. When I took the focus off of me, I began to see that Jesus was standing right by my side. He had always been with me, but it was ME who built the wall of separation. God's word tore down that wall that I had built out of my disobedience, and He will do the same in your life.
Is not my word like as a fire? saith the Lord; and like a hammer that breaketh the rock in pieces?
- Jeremiah 23:29
I would like to make one last point in regards to this topic. As I stated before, my answer to the question is always the same; a resounding “NO.” And it most certainly will be the same answer for you. This is something that I say with a smile on my face.
I can honestly say that in the beginning I was frustrated in my walk with the Lord. I would fall back to a worldly mindset and stray off the path. However, the Lord was there to pick me up, show me where I went wrong and set me on the righteous path. The sanctification process is definitely a time of trials. However, I rejoice in those times because I know am being molded by the hands of the Lord. “But now, O Lord, thou art our father; we are the clay, and thou our potter; and we all are the work of thy hand.” - Isaiah 64:8
The smile I am talking about is out of the knowledge that I look more like Jesus today then I did yesterday. I understand that I will never look like Jesus because He is perfect and holy. However, through His grace I am able to share in the victory, as He is changing me by the day, by the hour, and by the second. Don't be discouraged when you answer that question with a “NO.” Rather rejoice; for leading a surrendered life to the Lord is one that will enable you to share in the victory of the cross, in which Christ overcame the world.
These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might
have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be
Amen, I say to that. Very inspirational! I had a similar experience, but let me take it just a step farther. In the Spirit, once I have accepted Jesus into my heart, my spirit is made perfect (even while the vessel (body) isn't). God sees Christ in me, therefore sees me as acceptable in Christ's righteousness. Soon after I understood this, my body and soul changed, and I did become less sinful. We must learn who we are in Christ, worship the Father as he sees us. Yes, we must repent, yes we must improve in body and mind. BUT yes we can in the body and mind and without strife. Awesome post!