Psalm 42: 1-11; As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God. My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God? My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God? When I remember these things I pour out my soul in me: for I had gone with the multitude that kept holyday. Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise Him for the help of His countenance. Oh my God, my soul is cast down within me: therefore will I remember from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites, from the hill Mizar. Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy water spouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me. Yet the Lord will command His lovingkindness in the daytime, and in the night His song shall be with me, and my prayer to the God of my life. I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy? As with a sword in my bones, my enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God? Why art thou cast down oh my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? Hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise Him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.
My brethren, I write this entry with a heavy heart as I am touched by the Word of the Lord which He has placed upon my heart. My life has been filled with attacks from the enemy, and my soul burdened with the thoughts of how at times my life has been displeaseing to the Lord. I know at times I have felt as though the Lord was far from me, and that my sin had caused a wall to be built up between me and the Lord Jesus. I know that I have indeed sinned and fallen short of the glory of a holy and righteous God. Although I named the name of the Lord Jesus, I still walked in the flesh, which as a result separated me from Him. I saw no hope in this life as I was indeed backslidden. I had lost touch with my first love and was encamped round about by the enemy and I saw no way for salvation. I was indeed falling prey to the wiles of the enemy which sought only destruction for me and my family. I was indeed fallen away from the Lord, and saw no hope of rescue.
Praise God for His mercy and grace. I came to Him while I was fallen in sin. He gave me hope and restored my soul. I read about the prodigal son and realize now that I was he. I was fallen into the muck and mire of sin and pleasures of the flesh. How I longed for the presence of my Heavenly Father. I realized that the pleasures of the sin are fleeting and bring only misery and death. I was in the throes of physical and spiritual death, but the Lord rescued me. He saved me and set me free from myself, and the sins that so easilly beset me. He came to me as a lost sheep and gave me newness of life. The Lord visited me and gave me a new beginning. He truly set me free!
The Lord can do the same for you. The strategy of the devil is to separate you from the presence of the Lord. The enemy wants you to put your faith and trust in the things of the flesh. Do not be deceived by the lies of the enemy. Understand that the Lord is here for you. No matter what you might be going through in this life, no matter what sins you have fallen into, the Lord Jesus will never leave you nor will He forsake you. He wants to be your first love again, and He will give you the desires of your heart if you will but repent of sin, and come to Him with your whole heart, mind, and soul. Do not put off untill tomorrow what you should be doing today. Seek His holy face, and return to your first love, which is the Lord Jesus. it is not too late, for today is the day of salvation.