The disease that crippled me, forced me to throw everything away. I had lost my dreams, goals, things that I wished to experience. My future was simply to exist until death arrived. A pleasure that I had was visiting a cave that is on our property. In the first stages of my disease, I thought about being able to visit this cave once more. I often thought about past visits, during one visit I encountered a bobcat. I kneeled down an watched this beautiful animal, even talked to it. We were within ten feet of each other, it was very exciting. I even talked out loud to it, I saw it's tail swishing side to side, it was making a decision whether I was a threat or something to be ignored. The time clicked by and finally it went back into the rocks. I often thought about this encounter, then as my disease progressed my desire to return to the cave vanished, because I had lost hope of ever returning. This was so true of what I had become, empty of all life's plans, goals and dreams.
My sudden healing brought about shock as well as pure joy. The sudden renewal of life brought about the need for me to step back and think now what! I have an opportunity to start fresh with a clean slate. I had no goals, dreams, or even a job. At first both my wife and I were and still are, to a point, overwhelmed. The difference is this time I can allow God to step in and work in me and through me. I have to restructure my life. Allowing the Holy Spirit to guide me as I set new goals, dreams and desire's. I step up and out of bed in the morning praising and thanking God. I meditate on Jesus' death, buriel and resurrection and what he did for me. I tend to our pets and then read, study and meditate on God's Word. It is through this time of study that the Holy Spirit has taught me that the beliefs of the Heart is the key to changing self and serving The Father's Will. Part of this is the desire to share my story, so that for God's glory, it will change lives. Proverbs 16:1 "The preparations of the heart in man, and the answer of the tongue, is from the Lord." God has touched my heart now through him I must cultivate and change my heart beliefs to conform and harmonize with The Fathers Will. Proverbs 18:15 " The heart of the prudent getteth knowledge; and the ear of the wise seeketh knowledge."