Here is the continuation of yesterday's post. May the Lord use it for His glory.
And that is how we lived our lives as we walked through our greatest suffering ever. As we lived out of hotels and slept in hospital beds for weeks at a time, as we watched our daughter go through treatments that would make her sick and weak, as we saw her endure countless medical procedures and surgeries, as we saw her suffer more pain than any of us would care to imagine. Our only hope was, and is, in Christ and His promise to His children that He would work all things for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. We had to stand upon the reality of God's Word and the joy and hope that we have from Him so that we would not be brought down by the reality that was right in front of us.
2nd Cor. 4:16 “Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So, we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
Our hope must never be upon only that which is seen. For that is temporary. It can be here one minute and gone the next. But Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever, and in Him alone can we place all of our hope.
As hard as it was, Susana seemed to be responding very well to the treatment. But just as she was about to begin her final leg of treatment, she relapsed and the doctors told us that there was nothing else that we could do. So, on February 11th of last year, I held my daughters hand as she took her last breath on this earth and passed into the arms of her loving Savior.
People ask me why I am not mad at God for allowing this to happen. Words cannot ever describe the pain that resides in my heart. I am a broken man, and I don't anticipate nor do I expect to ever fully heal. I walk with a limp, just like Jacob walked with a limp after wrestling with God. And Jacob's limp was always a reminder to him that there was a God whom He served that was greater than Him and was in complete control of His life. And so too, my limp is a reminder that this world is indeed fallen, and for this reason, we are never called to put our hope in things of this world, but that God has promised to redeem all that has been broken. He has made a way for the crooked to be made straight. He has made a way for the sinner to be made righteous. He has made a way for life to overcome death. He has conquered the power of the grave.
So how could we ever get mad at such a God? How can I be mad at God who now holds my daughter in His perfect loving care and one day will hold me as well and reunite me forever with my little princess? How could we not praise Him forever no matter what we experience here on this earth. Hasn't He told us that in this world, we will have many troubles, but not to let that destroy us because He has overcome the world? Hasn't He reminded us over and over again that this life is but a vapor that is here for a moment and then gone, but that eternity is forever? Hasn't He done the better thing by securing our lives for eternity rather than just guaranteeing us pain free living for a short time here on this earth? I cannot be mad at such a God, but rather will love Him and praise Him forever for all He has done.
And what hope we have if we are His children, if we have truly surrendered our hearts and lives to His Lordship. If we have denied ourselves and have embraced His will above all things. If we have recognized that we are sinners and don't deserve anything from God except His wrath, but through faith in what Christ did on the cross, we have been given every one of His great and precious promises.
What hope we have if we know that we are truly His children. Do you have such a hope? Do you belong to Jesus? Is He truly the Lord of your life? If not, you may enjoy a short time of fun and excitement here on this earth, but you are forfeiting spending eternity with Him in Heaven and on the new earth and instead you will spend eternity in the suffering of Hell...because if you are denying Him here on this earth, Scripture states that He will deny you before the Father in Heaven. O how my hope is that you know Him as Savior and Lord...He is so worthy of all!
I'm so thankful that even in her 4 short years on this earth, that our little Susana came to know and trust in Jesus, her Savior.
Yes, there is a grief that is unavoidable that reaches a depth in my heart that is unknowable. But there is also a joy that Christ gives His children that is deeper still. And herein lies a hope that is immovable. And this is what the world must know...and this is the platform that God has given me to glorify His name.