Been a while since I posted...thought I would share this with you
Is writing not just another way to paint a picture? Share a memory, share a story, give someone good news or in fact give them bad news? I saw fellow Marines get the bad news letters while on some of my many deployments. Their smile would turn to a frown. Some would yell and some would cry (yes Marines do cry, contrary to Jethro Gibbs on NCIS) some would just go into an almost shock of some sort. I never got one of those letters, I had no one to write me any. I knew going in that it would be a mistake to be attached to anyone or anything at all. The first Gulf was a strange place in time for me. My introduction to the world at large, my introduction to suffering, fear, bravery, death, dying, and more than anything else….LIFE ITSELF! How very precious it is.
I don’t always think that way. I am like most of you here. When I am having my issues, life can seem pointless in the moment. I have the thoughts. I try to rationalize and not internalize. It is tough at times to see past moments. I was trained to see past moments and whiteboard out every scenario and variable in any operation. It works in life as well. So why the loathing of myself at times when I have so much to be happy about in life (with the exception that I lost my job on Friday…but I worry not, software sales is easy to find a job in with my resume)? The short answer is I do not know. I will be sharing a link at the end of this, that will more than likely shock some of you. I always thought to myself, if I could just be someone else it would be better, if I had a million dollars it would be better lol…and so on.Well when you click or cut and past this link I think you will be SHOCKED when you see not only who wrote and performed this, but he suffers from anxiety and depression…you would never know it by watching him on tv every week….turns out before he became rich and famous and on your tv set every week…he was quite the singer and songwriter….even more odd is he wrote this song on the set of his show last year.Talented Man you are……………the lyrics speak to all of us on here I think. Bravo to him (and I even dig the TV show)