Oh I finally feel better! Somewhat. Not 100% but I am getting there! I woke up yesterday and I felt the need to take on the world! I had energy and the motivation went through the roof! I played with my girls for about 1 hour outside and took care of a lot of stuff. Felt so nice to have the energy to do stuff! I felt fun and flirty and playful! Today I completed another book! :) I really need a illustrator for the children's christian book I want to do. So if anyone out there can draw.. Really message me! I'll split all royalties on it! :D Things are slowly changing around. Not by much yet but slowly. And that is all that I can ask for. :) Now to get me out of this depression. I know that will change soon.
I went to church yesterday and everything that the filling pastor talked about really hit home with me. It was about struggling with your faith and not to lose hope. That can so happen and that has been happening with me lately. I still need a break but I know as long as I maintain faith I should be okay! No I WILL be okay! Nothing that prayers can't overcome and I am doing my best to keep strong! I have a lot to look forward too and need to get myself back ontop like I was. No more being low for me. I can't risk it. It's too dark of a place to be there and it's something I don't plan on doing again!