I lost my house and totaled my truck a few months apart. I left my husband and lost my job within a week. I've been an under-employed single mom for the past year. Life has not been grand.
I have cried so much this year that I didn't think it was physically possible for me to cry anymore. I pray day and night for answers to my problems. Sometimes, I wondered IF God was ever going to answer me. I read the Bible faithfully, and started getting discouraged because it seemed as if God was just fulfilling His Promise to the dynamic people in the Bible, not me, but I kept on reading anyway, trying not to smear the words with my tears.
Then I realized, it's not IF it's When.
Psa. 27:14 Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.
Lamentations 3:25 The LORD is good to those who wait for Him, To the person who seeks Him
Psalm 39:7 And now, Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in Thee.
The lack of funds had me literally up at night wondering what we were going to eat, wear, and at times, how I was going to keep a roof over our heads. As discouraged as I was, I kept reading the Bible and realized I was preoccupied with things as if I wasn't saved. Matthew 6
Then I realized a new job shouldn't be in the forefront of my mind, seeking God's Kingdom should.
I also realized that God Instructed us to wait for Him patiently and confidently Romans 8:25. Through my tears and my worrying, I realized I was guilty of not doing that which was a testament to my lack of faith.
The new strength I''ve gained waiting on God (Isaiah 40:31) has allowed me to ease up on the crying.