Why is it that so often You seem to undermine our understanding? Surely it’s a matter of perception. It seems an easy thing to say that Your will is not always our will and thus You seem to undermine our intentions even when we feel they are in line with Yours. It’s us. We make You fit our world, our intentions, our understanding; but then You must have known that we would always do this.That’s why it’s so extraordinary when an individual and You are on the same page.
We may want to know Your will, and we may want to do it but we doubt our own ability to be correct about it and thus, when we think we are acting in accord with You but things don’t work out the way we think they should, it may seem You’ve sabotaged us. But we’ve sabotaged ourselves! We are good at this andat placing the blame on others – even You.
The recognition and discernment of Your will is not an easy thing. The most profound advice in this matter may be something I read recently in a booklet of Lenten meditations. What it offered was the advice that to know God’s will and to know the truth of what You taught we must live it. By living each day what You taught we come to realize its truth, and in realizing its truth God’s will for man becomes clearer. It’s so easy to convince ourselves that what we are doing is true to God’s will when, in fact, it may not be. God loves us and grants us the freedom to do what we will, but there is ever that which You would wish us to be – forgiving us all the rest. Fulfilling Your wish that we become aligned with Your will takes effort to discern and to live out. We constantly need and obtain Your forgiveness and love in our stumbling attempts to do this. In this there is hope.