My brain has been ravaged by multiple sclerosis for the majority of my adult life, so long in fact that the damage is causing my brain to literally collapse in on itself. Doctors call it cerebral atrophy.
The day I found out, I was devastated, but not entirely surprised. For months I had noticed that my cognitive abilities were declining and that I was having increasing word search issues when talking to people. My memory, which used to be pretty sharp, had been rapidly deteriorating.
I needn't disclose the details about how this has impacted my life, because I believe you all can imagine, and because the focus of this paper is not on how hard it is to live with a shrinking brain, but rather how God has been so faithful in His care for me. It is also about trying to make sense of the promise that He makes to us that by His stripes we are healed. And finally, it answers the question I have been asking myself since the MS took a rapid turn for the worse. "Lord, how on earth can I ever be of service to you now?"
Over the course of the next few days I hope to write about the following Scriptures and how they pertain to my life with Multiple Sclerosis. Hopefully I will tie it all together in a way that will make it clear how God has used my decreasing cognitive abilities to show me how to get in touch with the most important aspect of my being....my spirit and how it relates to Him and my ability to worship.
Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."
So we say in confidence, "The lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"
But He was pierced for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon Him, and by His wounds we are healed.