Letters to Jesus (Contrary Spiritual Notions) - 13
We so often think of sin as that which separates us from God – and that it does! But in another sense it is our sinful nature and our realization of it (along with that separation) that inclines us most powerfully to throw ourselves upon the mercy of a loving, forgiving God. There are strong grounds that suggest a very real correlation between an honest, humble assessment of our own weakness and our ability to love and be open to God. In other words, sin can draw us powerfully to God.
Sin allows us the potentiality of being open to change. Now, I am not advocating that we all go out and pursue a life of intentional sin so that we may grow closer to You. Sin does separate and distance us from You. The more we sin the greater the separation, the farther the distance. But the distance and separation created by sin also creates a potentiality that is not there in the “righteous.”
The Pharisees, Sadducees, and other religious leaders of Your time had little room for this potentiality. They were more concerned with being right. That’s why You did not choose from their ranks for Your apostles. Instead You sought out the twelve frail human beings we know because of their potentialities. You chose sinners because they were not too right to be open.
The same is true of many of the great sinner-saints throughout the ages. If there is any “red flag” here it would have to be about the dangers of being self-righteous. It closes down our minds and hearts. It is yet another paradox of the spiritual life that in the literal following of what a religion teaches as right and good we become smug. We think we’ve got it. And we find ways to show others that we do. Yet this is not the metanoia You desire. The exterior evidence of what might label us “sinners” to others has little to do with what may be going on in our hearts where love resides. Sin has a tendency to make us more introspective than smug. It is in our weakness that a God such as You gives us hope and strength. In the dread of the hopelessness of our state is where we find You.