Letters to Jesus (Contrary Spiritual Notions) - 10
There are things I know about myself that need changing to help me grow. They are things, unfortunately, about which I do little to actually change. I am a Martha, too often concerned with busywork that keeps me from resting in You. I miss so many chances to keep You present by failing to mix prayers with everything I do. Some form of the “Jesus Prayer” seems so simplistic andchildlike to me. Yet, even this morning You speak to me through the words of Fr. Anthony DeMello urging me to reconsider this prayer.
It’s not the first time I’ve read of its efficacy in keeping You present. Other authors besides DeMello have spoken of it. For awhile (especially on retreats a couple times a year) I practiced a form of it in something called a “prayer walk.”It suggested that if I use this form ofprayer for about a month then every time I move my feet in walking it would elicit the prayer in my mind and, consequently, increase my awareness of Your presence.Now and then, when I am working, the “Jesus prayer” recurs to me but not in a sustained way. There is also another fairly unobtrusive way I’ve learned to summon Your presence with a quick prayer at various intervals. I set the hourly “beep” on my digital watch to sound and that reminds me to turn to You.
It’s both a statement of and an indictment of our humanity that we must look for devices outside ourselves to remind us of You. Yet, as with all of our contrivances for getting closer to You, You recognize the effort not the success or failure.