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   [24 Sep 2011 | Saturday]

abstract conceptualization



In my life and what I have lived through allows me a unique perspective to share religious views from Southeast Asia. Because of my Masters Degree in Divinity Theology my calling as you may know is holistically grounded in my own faith. I do not claim to know everything about other religions and I have a lot to still learn about the Buddhist/Muslim religions and the cultures it has created. I am open to learn from you if you choose to interact with me. I am here to learn; as well as to teach. I live my life as a Christian, a soldier of wars, and a soldier of a fortunate existence. Temperately, my greatest challenge in a 24 hour period is that it is so hard to smile and be humble which is very strenuous for me to do.

Christ lived His life in the Holy Spirit and was able to be joyful in almost every occasion. In His life He also experienced other emotional attributes such as anger and frustration. He also cried. He spent a lot of time alone and on His knees in prayer. He was autonomous but not egocentric. He was easily self-contained by the Holy Spirit but also He was completely relational to His friends and those whom He loved/s. I truly believe that Jesus was able to completely conquer the ego of self  and completely identify with The Father God. He overcame the fallacies in the first Adam and became a prima representation of the perfectness of God and therefore mastered through His own will every social environment. Becoming part of Jesus, accepting Him, responding to His call, and adding myself to His collective I am therefore able to go above socio-cultural boundaries. Indeed, respectfully even, Fred Rauthbaum could live to be a thousand years old and not be able to understand sociocultural theory like Jesus did.

I, counter intuitively, need sponsorship economically but intuitively need sponsorship spiritually. I need the help of a church body, clubs, and alumni. Being in Afghanistan kept me away from the Southern Gospel churches I attend and my denominational kinship is very small indeed. Most of my spiritual adoption and revelation was attained at a church that does not share a face book page! They are very autonomous and egocentric. Growing up as a foster child; (please understand me, that,) when I left I never wanted to return to my “home-town,” which has been a part of my own kataphatic spiritual tradition. Likewise, my concurrent military service and life overseas, (a time too when I did not walk with God closely) followed then by a pursuit of jobs that would keep me employed as I traveled all across America continuously searching for a spiritual existence added more of a apostolic mission to my life. Understandably, there are patterns to adult spiritual development; never ceasing to grow in areas of moral, social, mental, physical, or faith…that lead us to authentic spiritual existence with Christ.

Currently I am writing letters to the Marshall Assembly of God Church in Arkansas, Midland Assembly of God Church, Alumni, Military Chaplains and others I have known to be genuine in contemplative and apostolic spirituality…

My incorporation (Shoes for Shoe-less Children, Inc)  is only to cover a few of my expenses. All the money will go, with honor and integrity, to the cause I have created by guidance of prayer and supplication. Additionally, I would love the opportunity to come speak at your church and much like George Fox I am much grounded in the Holy Spirit though I do share the Quaker weakness (language barriers). I live on my college student loan budget alone...the work that I have done in the past and the prosperity it created went to get myself out of debt so that I could answer this calling and to be obedient to God. 


I need bible tracks in translated to Thai and to Farsi.

I need a work visa for Thailand...

I need people who can get me through border crossings into the Middle East...

I need people, men, who are warriors physically, spiritually, emotionally, to help me establish a foothold and to walk beside me as my team...

I need money donations to keep shoes, towels, clothes, books, and education flowing to orphans....

I need spiritual guidance from greater men than I.....

I will eventually need modes of transportation...

I need your prayers! Please talk to Jesus on my behalf!

Thailand...the land of tolerance of every idea and every concept; so much so that no virtue is held in esteem of another. Virtues are taught by the family unit and the man is the lead example of such virtue in our Christology. However, our world, our societies, are ever becoming more "fatherless." Why I charge you? Well, how many hours at work do you spend dad? What, in addition to your soul, are you trading your family for? Be aware the Jesus Christ is exclusive!

            To be a father is to be a role model. I recall the apostle Paul as he witnessed and corrected the Church at Corinth. Paul, as we know, was a single man and it is said that he was married once. Paul told to the Church that being single is a blessing beyond measure because we have more of our lives to submit to God. To abstain from creating a family is a great pleasure to those who serve God whole-heartedly as Paul did. It allows for a broader more enriched field of evangelism. having a family is a different type of blessing (the Incarnational Movement) and a man who has chosen to have a family should cultivate it as a garden; ensuring every possibility for ripened fruits of society, and as Lot proclaimed," is there not one Lord, what if there were five, ten...." in order to maintain spiritual equilibrium.

            The children at the Bang Lamung Orphans home have had no family, only government employees who take care of them; they are fatherless. A part of my character that Christ has refined in me through illumination is His deep sense of love for others. Being around these children has reminded me that life is more than our materials and that my own heart burns with the love of God. That God's grace, which was even offered to me, is a free gift; even to those who do not know of Him. It is my obligation, until it is known, to participate in their suffering. I will do so gladly until I am no longer needed. Then I will move on the next and the next and the next. Hopefully, I will have a Church supporting me by then....:)

I am faced with the challenge that I may never be a father someday. However, God has shown me, by His grace, that the Holy Spirit is sufficient to lead us through life in the dark nights of our senses and the ark nights of our souls. Our lives in union, to live much like the Cherubim at the throne of God in Revelation…constantly surprised and in awe.

 Family is a blessing as much as a house and farm or occupation. If you don't believe me just read the book of Job (again). Lose it all gentlemen...and where will you stand? In death you cannot take anything with you and you would hope that your sons would reflect your image as Jesus did for the Father after you are gone. Otherwise, you have been fruitless and have lead your family into the void. To be a father is to be in a constant state of illumination and abandonment to grace.

These boys here and across the world need more role models. Men who are willing to spend time with them and cultivate their lives (trained athletes who follow Christ). I am calling Christian men now to join my cause! If you meet the criteria... To help me teach English, give shoes, and bible tracks (in their language) from Malaysia to Afghanistan! I am unconventional and God has made me a leader and an evangelist. I am not founding and building churches I am cultivating young men to serve Christ. If you would like for me to speak to your church I would gladly do so. This is an excellent place to practice monastic evangelism and martial arts. Martial Arts is a great tool for leadership and discipline.

A fatherless society...a Buddhist religion...the only virtue attained is the "making of merit" which is done by taking offerings to a local Wat (temple) or giving to the monks when they walk by bare-foot and bald. They do indeed live a life of complete monasticism which is very honorable in my opinion, however, it shows that there is a large grey area of life. Buddha does not teach love unconditional and does not require any sacrificial efforts on behalf of the individual. There is nothing in Buddha that teaches of mercy and grace either, only karma. Which, allow me to elaborate, has nothing to do with reaping and sowing as mentioned in bible.

            What was good about Buddha (the man) was that he was a good man! He chose to help people, therefore, stories of him today still persist. This is why stories are told about him they often are accompanied by acts of greatness i.e. lotus' blooming at his feet as he walked. I do not doubt that that could have happened but I like to point out to you sheep that my/our God walked on water and was born in a horse stable, taught Himself alone the law of the Jews even (not as a prince in a palace taught by many theologians) Likewise, this religion, much like the early catholic church, has amassed great wealth in its temples and building of them...therefore its deities are vividly shown everywhere. The earning of merit is supposed to bring good fortune and luck to a week's worth of work. A fortune that is open for all types of interpretation; if you are blessed with a fortune of money you are expected to build a Wat. Also, temptation is not limited and is perceived as desire; denying desire leads only to a better lifestyle. Truth to that. The denying of desire, as taught by Buddha, will lead to better fortunate experiences i.e. customers at the business, buyers in the markets, or tourists in the bars....but there is no denying of self. Hence the abstract fatherless society we are faced with today. 

            The boys are mostly autistic. It is my opinion that orphans and autistic ones at that tend to make great men and leaders due to the nature of their experiences. Pray for me that I can portray Christ, in His humanity, and be a role-model and teacher for these boys. Pray I will be able to continue here in a string budget. Pray for fruit of my sowing. I am faced with people who will tolerate me but a government that may not. I am faced with many temptations daily, and daily my spiritual cup is emptied, daily I need renewed with your prayers. 




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