Me, Eddie, and the kids went out to eat IHOP this evening.As soon as we got there, I immediately noticed an elderly lady arrive at the same time we did.She was probably in her late 70's, maybe even early 80's. I noticed she drove herself there, which was impressive in my book!She was very cute, all dressed up in a nice blouse with nice pants. She had some cute earrings and a bracelet.The kind of grandma you just wanna run over and squeeze! :-)She sat alone, which is what caught my eye.I imagined she was probably a widow and had no one to eat with.Perhaps her grown children lived out of town and made visits only for the holidays.I kept looking over at her all by herself in that booth.I told Eddie right away that we should invite her over to join us for dinner.We both loved the idea and it was great "in theory" but neither one of us acted on it.Eddie and I went back and forth with, "Yeah, go ask her if she'd like to join us.No you.No you."I sat there for about 15 minutes staring back and forth, at her, and then at the kids.I was so conflicted inside. My spirit was very uneasy because I KNEW what God wanted me to do...and yet, I just could not get past the fear.:-/After a few more minutes passed, I felt like I'd missed the opportunity.The moment was gone.I had missed the window.We finished our dinner and I continued to look over at her eating her meal alone. :-(Each time I glanced over, my heart shattered in a million pieces. :-( Why could I not bring myself to invite this lovely woman over to eat with us?Why didn't I have the courage to speak to a stranger?Why couldn't I get passed the fear and do what God had laid on my heart to do?
Tonight I go to bed with a very heavy heart. The truth is, I listened to Satan's lies. "But you'll look like an idiot.She does NOT want to have dinner with you and your loud children, why would she?She may not be lonely, then how would you look??Maybe she enjoys eating alone; some people do.You're gonna feel completely foolish if you invite her over and she says no."Stupid lies.Inaccurate statements.
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy..."John 10:10
He stole my opportunity because I let him.I stayed in my comfort zone, trapped in the bondage of fear. I don't think my grandma would be very proud of me if she knew how I had acted this evening.More importantly, I don't think I brought glory to my Father in heaven.
I missed this opportunity.I write this not to beat myself up. (Although, that's probably what it sounds like lol.)I write this to say, "Don't miss the opportunity!"Don't fall into satan's trap.Be bold, be courageous, be different.In the name of Jesus! :-)
Please don't beat yourself up about this. Many of us have been caught in this same situation and have missed the opportunity because of fear. 2 Timothy 1:7 says "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind". The enemy will come and make us fearful of doing what God tells us to. He intimidates us and makes us fearful of what people will think about us, say about us or do to us. When this happens, we have to remember that we have the 3 characteristics, power, love and a sound mind. The Holy Spirit that lives in us will cause that power to operate in us. God will not allow us to fail when we are doing His will. I would like to invite you to visit me at http://www.thebirthingpoolministry.ning.com. Here we are helping people like you to birth forth their purpose and destiny in God. You will learn the gifts that are in you and begin to operate effectively in them. I hope to see you there.