The sum total of our entire existence – the whole package – is being loved by You and loving You in return. That’s it! Nothing more or less! Yet we spend a lifetime cultivating proficiency in defending ourselves from Your love. We ignore it or fight it off in continuously creative ways. We go to great lengths and expend great effort to avoid it. We are so much a part of the world’s hustling attachment to image, power, possessions, and self-satisfaction that we cannot hear or see You for the blare; and so we give up trying and cave in to these things. Even though You are there, You are not audible or visible to us in these things. Each of these, in its own way, in my own life, is a way I block Your love.
As I think about them, it occurs to me that I have left one out, one that is major in my own life. It’s “activity” – busy-ness – non-stillness. From the moment I get up in the morning my thoughts turn to what I’m going to do today. First this, then, before lunch, that, then this afternoon, this, and after that I’ll get these things done, and tonight watch the game on TV. Right from the morning I load the day with obstacles to my loving You and allowing You to love me. Some tasks, chores, or responsibilities are necessary, but unless I take time to make a concerted effort to include You in what I’m doing or see You at that moment, I just plow right over You. I’m not talking about those rare contemplative, transcendental flashes when everything else just vanishes, but rather about times when I linger in an un-busy sense of openness while doing something else – like fishing in the middle of a beautiful lake setting on a gorgeous day, or swimming aimlessly and calmly through cool waters, or just watching birds in a birdbath. These are times when there is no sense of urgency about anything. Somehow, in such times, without trying to summon Your presence, You are there, You fill the empty spaces. What we need to do is find more empty spaces and cultivate an approach to living our daily lives that makes us more proficient at letting them- and You - just happen.