Maybe the most important, yet most difficult, aspect of the loving search is to abandon ourselves totally and put ourselves trustingly in God’s hands. Only when we are able to do this can the search progress.
There are so many things with which we allow ourselves to clutter our lives. These things push against the loving search. They push against abandoning ourselves and they push against trusting You. For instance, Anthony DeMello talks about what he calls our dependency on the drugs of approval, appreciation, acceptance and popularity by which we allow ourselves to be controlled. Under the powerful sway of these “drugs” a clear-headed approach to life and love is harmfully altered. And it truly is these drugs that push against the inclination to abandon ourselves totally to You. The powerful residue of approval and acceptance – even when we try to toss it out – still works its effects on us, still clouds the purity of our intentions and supports the very self we are trying to abandon. It controls us. We, to varying degrees, let it do this because we are respecters of people. We want to put ourselves in positions to be popular with others, to be accepted and approved by them, to be appreciated by them.
Our efforts to do this control us – and we allow it almost without thought. They point us toward this life and this world whereas if we abandon ourselves to seeing You in all things we would be seeing You first in other people. We would be considering not how they look upon us but how You do, and we could feel sure about trusting Your love.