A hunger and thirst for the Word is increased by asking for it and/or by watching it in action.To me there is nothing more exciting than having the written Word be the Living Word in my life.
I have read the Bible and not understood very much of what I've read and I have read the Bible and had the eyes of my understanding opened to amazing things.
I do so love God. He never ceases to amaze me! One of the ways He grabs my attention is by leading me to a Scripture and making it real in my life. One of the more recent such happenings occurred with Romans 12:2 - "Don't copy the behavior and customs of this world, but be a new and different person with a fresh newness in all you do and think. Then you will learn from your own experience how his ways will really satisfy you." The Living Bible
This has opened up my way of thinking about many things and relieved a great deal of stress in doing so. Does that satisfy me? It surely does. I have been tempted and even made attempts at suing a doctor for the damage he did to my foot through surgery. I knew deep in my heart this was not something God wanted me to do, but I pursued it anyway. I received rejection after rejection as this medical group is quite prominent in this area and carries a great deal of influence. That did not deter me! I finally found a law firm that agreed to take the case. The lawyers came to my home and it seemed promising. It was coming up on the second anniversary of the surgery - in New York State you must file within two years of last seeing the offending doctor - and I called the law firm as I hadn't heard from them in a while. They didn't get back to me. I called again and asked for them to send me my records. I wrote a letter to the Grievance Committee complaining that, while they agreed to take the case, they did nothing but let the time run down. All of this consumed my time and a lot of physical and emotional energy. It was draining at times and I was not accomplishing or creating anything productive. My anger was controlling me and definitely interfering with my relationship with God. I finally reached the point of givng up. I really had no choice. It was about this time when I discovered this verse by praying and asking for a Word. I could no longer ignore that God didn't want me doing this.
Then He really faked me out. He told me to call the Practice Manager of the group and tell him of my complaint. He listened well and asked if I would see the offending doctor. I told him no. He said he would get back to me in a couple of days. Yeah, right, I'd heard that one before! He actually carried through, but instead of setting me up with another doctor in the practice, said he had spoken to the offending doctor and he wanted to see me, and once more, asked if I would see him. My response was yes this time.
Within two days I had an appointment. I went armed with a recorder and he came in with a nurse. It made me laugh inside. We made it through that meeting and the second time we met I left my recorder home and he came in alone! I don't know what God has in mind. I tend to think it's more for the doctor and his future way of dealing with cases like mine than for me, but I have been cooperative but I'm just not able to walk without pain. I've been using AFOs but trying to get them adjusted has been a struggle and the pain is still there. Being hot to wear in the hot weather isn't great either so I struck out on my own and have been trying various footwear.
During this experimental time, I've been having a series of three eulastic injections for my knee due to arthritis of the knee cap (of course it's my left knee and my right foot that are bad - it really helps using crutches as I can switch from supporting either my knee or my foot depending on the pain. Personally I think it would be better to have it all on one side if it has to be at all, but that's the human nature in me speaking!) Today I had my last injection. I have known this surgeon since he operated on my shoulder in 1994 and he's in a different group than my foot doc. Today he told me he really wanted me to see the doctor in their group as he feels this man is very good and might just have some help for me. Knowing he really cares about his patients and is just not looking for business for his group, I agreed. I can't get in until mid-September, a bit disappointing, but what's another two months at this point. I have to go back to the AFOs, a supportive foot orthotic that goes from just below the knee to my toes, as my experimenting hasn't proved successful.
I do have hope that this next doctor will perhaps be a person who thinks outside the box and have a solution. I believe this because I feel God's been leading me on this windy path for me and for others. He also has given me peace, a commodity I treasure greatly. My time can be better used now that I have given this whole thing to Him. My stress level is almost zero, a great deal better than being off the charts!
Another scripture He has just shown me is Proverbs 24:2 "Any enterprise is built by wise planning, becomes strong through common sense, and profits wonderfully by keeping abreast of the facts."
I have felt God leading me to do a blogtalkradio show. I feel it strongly as there have been obstacles to overcome just trying to get this off the ground. I have not been discouraged through all of this, but I have been learning by my mistakes, which have been many, and this verse has charged me up and I am just in the very beginning stages of walking this out. Time has been the biggest obstacle and I must learn to be more disciplined in that way. With the above verse as my other source of encouragement, I am renewing my efforts in the direction I need to go and am very excited about it.
God has so much for each of us if we but take the time to spend with Him and His Word. Blessings to all of you and your adventures with Him. "Let us rejoice and be glad, giving the glory to Him."