There was a time when we were connected to You in a union similar to that of a child in its mother’s womb. I think this is the way it was always supposed to have been. But we ourselves cut the cord and, since then, have been ever trying to get back into the womb and reconnect. If we are driven by the resultant concupiscence and distractedness of the world, we are also innately driven by a desire to be one again with You – however latent that desire may be.
The Genesis metaphor for the rebellion within us by which we sever our union with You is a metaphor for the continuous presence of a situation in which human beings daily find themselves – a turning away from You even within the context of wanting to be one with You.
That separation and its accompanying “slap in the face” are even more painful to You. Even more than we, You seek our reconnection and reconciliation. So much does God seek after it that He turns over His Son to again and again be betrayed and slapped in the face in order to make the reconnection of His creation with the Primal Womb.
God doesn’t make mistakes. So it wasn’t a mistake that he made man. We are rooted in the Eternal Good. We can choose not to love You, but You cannot choose not to love us. As love itself, You cannot deny Your own existence. But we deny that in us which is You, we deny love – and we die. It is because of this hardness in our hearts that we listen but fail to hear; look but fail to see; perceive but fail to understand.
In order to truly see, hear, and understand we must, with great humility (for we have so much that shames us) hack our ways through the weeds and underbrush we have allowed to grow up around us severing all ties that tether us to things. No reconnection can be made when we are already connected by the cords of other attachments we substitute for You.
Ultimately we do this alone. We sort through our false selves in solitude. In solitude we reconnect. The solitary man is a sign of contradiction to the world. The world shares little in common with the life of such a one except the need to reconnect. The point of reconnection cannot be found in exterior trappings of society’s daily life. Falling into this rhythm is easy but counter to finding the connection we deeply seek. The original sin is that we go outside of ourselves to find You.