It's been forever and then some since I've last wrote. Life has changed, as it never obviously stays the same. I'm very proud of myself, as it has been over a month since I've taken any sleeping pills. This is only because I got a new job that I started in April and I have a lot of early morning shifts. So my need or crave for more pills has pretty much turned into just thoughts. Sometimes on my days off, I'd like to use some, but it's not as bad. Work is going really well, and I enjoy some of the people I work with. I try not to attatch myself to anyone as I'm really not wanting to let too many people in my life. I think it's best that way, as I get into less trouble.
Sepetember is fast approaching, and I will soon be moving out! No more mom down my throat, no more step dad stealing my things. FREE!!!!! But what is that going to mean? Am I going to slip back into old ways because I now will have the freedom to do as I wish? Can I control these situations on my own? Am I leaving a safety net only to land flat on the cement? I don't know. But only time will tell I guess. I want to grow up. I want to mature. I want to find another life that I can live without shame or scrutiny. Is that too much to ask for in life? Probably.
Another big thing on my mind is my Facebook. Yup, I know it sounds lame. But awhile ago, it was hacked into. Now, Facebook has disabled my account and I'm unable to log in. My friends say I disappeared off their Friends lists. I have so many picturers on there that I might never get back. I'm soooo mad at this. I've emailed the support team several times, and nothing. But then I try to think to myself, maybe it's a good thing? I don't know. I have tons of friends on there who I might not find again. But maybe it's good as I can start anew with it? I'm still upset. I miss my pictures, and i miss the apps I had already gotten so far in. I don't use the internet much anymore, but it was still a favorite of mine. Such is the joy of internet!