I look to You when I realize how easy it is to become exasperated at those you love most. Humans are an exasperating bunch, yet there seems to be a direct correlation between the degree of exasperation and the degree of love. I’m inclined to think of Your exasperation with a variety of people You encountered in the records of the scriptures including Your parents and Your apostles. Of course this inclination blatantly ignores Your exasperation with me, which is what I should really be thinking about. This should not be very hard for me to understand since I find myself constantly in a state of exasperation with those closest to me. Yet, the very root of that exasperation is love itself. Much, however, is less than altruistic. Much is the self-love I’m trying to shun .
Exasperation on my part is often because of the non-conformity of others with my will. My will is not always Your will and therein lies the difference. Your will is in complete harmony with the Father’s, so Your exasperation with the recalcitrance of the Jews was justified. My will, however, is often way out of synch with Yours and, therefore, the exasperation is unjustified. The powerfully monstrous force of wanting others to think, act, and believe as I do – especially the loved ones who are closest to me – is the culprit. It is the culprit because there is no justification in this desire if my will is not in harmony with Yours.Rightfully all such exasperation on my part looms as a stumbling block between me and You. It is more correct, then, to direct such exasperation at myself rather than others.
The problem comes when one, in good conscience, firmly believes he/she is in harmony with Your will in acting a certain way towards a loved one who, in some way, is perceived as going “another way.” At this point exasperation seems unavoidable. We know the people we love better than anyone else. This knowledge can be the source of both great exasperation and great love; for it is within the context of our exasperation that we are presented with the opportunity to love, and to do so selflessly.
The people closest to me are often terribly exasperated with me because they know me so well. If their knowing me so well is a frequent cause of their exasperation with me, think of how much You, who know each of us better than we know ourselves, must be deeply exasperated with me. Yet, the salient point of Your example is that this exasperation can be the very source of love.
Despite whatever it is in me which most exasperates You, You love me. I should do no less. Despite whatever is in another that most exasperates me, I must realize that my exasperation flows from love, concern and knowledge. Exasperation such as I’m speaking of does not happen in regards to a stranger walking down the street.