Humility urges us to an honest assessment of ourselves in relation to others. It is my conviction that this pertains specifically to my relationship with You and, generally, to the spiritual life. The Imitation of Christ tells us that progress will be made only when we are able to truly regard ourselves as inferior to others.
So much of what I write to You seems to be motivated by the consolation it offers me for my own luke warmness and hypocrisy. I love the words of St. Therese of Lisieux: “ I am far from practicing what I know I should, but the mere desire to do so gives me peace.” There is so much humanity and longing in that sentence - especially as it comes from her, that it is a prayer. It’s simple honesty and humility keep me afloat. I want to shout with St. Paul, “By the grace of God, I am what I am”, and be ever so thankful for it: proud to have been given this great grace and humbly annihilated by the fact that there is no “I” in it.
If I grow, if I make You more present in my life, if I hear You in voices previously silent, if I love more and if I am constantly more grateful - it is not “I” at all, because it is by Your grace, Your gift, Your favor, and Your love that I am what I am. If I can ever come to fully immerse myself in that belief (not just express a realization of it in writing) then there is true humility. I am Your “work-in-progress” the features of whom are molded and shaped by my will to let You do so and Your will to never cease “gathering me in.”