In life everything is exterior to our conscious selves. Everything is somehow outside the essence of our being – our true self – Your Spirit. Even our ideas about You are merely parts of the consciousness of our lives thus placing them outside the margins of our souls. The paradox continues in the concept that the nature of everything in our consciousness is exterior to it. At no time, from birth till death, are we ever capable of attaching completely anything to the essence of our being until we are dead. Only then, when everything changes, is it internalized. Only then does everything external vanish. Internal life is born and true life, true self, continues forever in that which is its Source.
Thus we may say that during the time between our birth and death we are absorbed by two divergent paths that frequently crisscross over each other. One is the exterior life of the false self that is an inevitable attachment to being physically alive on this planet. The other is the interior true self which is the purest essence of our being, the gift of the eternal life of the Spirit. The former is unable to fully penetrate the latter and the latter does not become fully apparent till death.
It occurs to me that the gap between the two is marked off by the cause of man’s fallen nature, for man was conceived only in his true self and it is to that to which he strives to return. Even feelings, though they may emanate from our spirit, are exterior to the pure reality of that spirit. People closest to us whom we love dearly, and for whom we show our care, responsibility and respect are all, nonetheless, exterior and apart from our primal reality. Thus we can be told, when we ask whether those we love will be with us in heaven, that we will be so rapt in our own Source of being that we won’t care. EVERYTHING, in fact, is outside of what we portray but deep inside who we really are.