To love because you are loved is to be a money-changer. A money-changer is, essentially, an individual who exchanges one form of treasure for another at a slightly inflated rate so as to profit. When these individuals brought their services onto the temple grounds, You drove them out with the most explicit demonstration of anger recorded about You in scripture. At the heart of this there may be a message about how we negotiate our own treasures.
So often, our rate of exchange for love is a love in return that is slightly inflated so as to be profitable to us; and this love drives us away from You. Selfish love is not love at all! It is a means to our own ends. When we really get to the root of unconditional love, we not only understand that it is truly unselfish but also that one of the “conditions” it overlooks is that we are loved.
We are so attuned to looking for “signs” of Your love or “signs” from people we love. Yet, this is that very currency of inflation, that profit in the exchange that we so hungrily seek. It’s part of our human condition that we want that. In Your love and patience with our backwardness, You continually make concessions to us; but the point is: Your love expects no return. When we offer signs and concessions of our love for another, we step back and wait for the reaction, as if to say: “Now it’s your turn, what’s your rate of exchange?”
Now, how this applies to my love for You, I’m afraid, creates a sad scenario. What is my rate of exchange for You? What is that bit of inflation I seek from You to profit me most? Not that, in Your love, You wouldn’t give it to me - but what “things” in me prevent me from operating without considering this margin of profit? I know You love me with the best possible love. You are love. And, since I know this is not true in me, then I seek this in You. It is not a fair rate of exchange. It can’t be! For my love, You offer so much more. Accepting it and embracing it is all I can offer, but that is what You seek. Do not drive me out in anger when I take advantage of Your love and when I seek to inflate the worth of my own love. We cannot love with Your love, yet this is what we must do! Let my successes lie without judgment; only forgive my failures.