Any number of times in the past I’ve nurtured lengthy reflections on the proposition that, someday, I would give up all the “things” and selfish activities of my life and devote myself wholly to some other good. I am even bold enough sometimes to think that this may be a call from You. I muse about my ability and/or willingness to give up such “things”. My musings always leave me with the conclusion that I could do it. Very easy to say, but I really wonder if I have that strength. I wonder even more whether what I muse over is even necessary or desirable.
On a purely philosophical basis, I don’t want to be “owned” by material goods, wealth, power, passion or ambition; but are these elements undeniably counter to self-commitment in other areas? Sounds like I want to have my cake and eat it too. I guess I’m having a hard time figuring out why my spiritual growth depends on my detaching myself from things to which I’m not so sure I’m irrevocably attached in the first place. The bottom line keeps coming back to me from scripture, though, when You told the young man to give up everything and follow You.