What will be, will be! Acquiring this attitude of acceptance is becoming, in my life, more and more an awakening experience. The dear old "self" asserts itself even in my choices as to how I think of best pursuing a spiritual life. You have given me others, close to me, who point out that I need not pursue You in areas away from home and daily life.
I want so much to spend some time in a monastery, but there may be some very good reasons why You don’t want me to. St. Therese speaks to me in her own words about doing the little things "in secret" (a key to losing the "self") in my daily life. Truly, when I do something purely out of love and caring for another and intentionally hide it, the "self" is denied the "pat on the back" my wife says I’m always looking for. In this regard actions are important, but prayer may be the most clandestine denial of self out of love for others that we possess.