How is your relationship with God? Not with everyone else, but with God? If your relationship with him is your first priority and it is where it needs to be everything and everyone else will fall into place. As a mother and a wife somewhere I have lost who I am in Christ and that is not good. For one I am not truly being the wife God has called me to be and for two I am not being the mother he has called me to be. I am just a rotten shell going through the motions of life and that is exactly what everyone is getting from me, rottenness. Proverbs 12:4 says an excellent wife is the crown of her husband, but she Who causes Shame is like rottenness in his bones. I cannot be excellent if I am not seeking God, who is in fact excellent! How much more effective could I be if I were putting my God first? a lot! because I would be doing God's will. Jesus says in Matthew 6:33 but seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. So I had an Epiphany today! Wow! I realized I have been harboring bitterness! Oh my goodness I couldn't believe that all this miserableness was caused by me! What?! Surely it's because everyone treats me so badly and I never get recognized for anything and on and on. Well guess what! God being the good good God that he is revealed this all to me today! A weight has been lifted off of me today and I've also realized it's me and God and who I am in Him. Not who I think everyone wants me to be. I am so thankful for this revelation! I am free to be me. So what if Joe so and so doesn't notice that I did something really awesome today! My God did and he's proud of me because I am his child!