I will begin by telling the readers that Hannah Joseph is not my real name. Due to the sensitivity of the material that I will be sharing with you, I want to protect the anonymity of my family and myself. I have some things that I want to share with the world and I feel that a pseudonym is the best way to be honest without subjecting my family to the ugliness of what I want to talk about.
I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. This terrible thing is not uncommon, but all too often it is not talked about. I hope that my comments and memories can help those who read what I have to say. I will share my experience and share how I was able to overcome so many obstacles to my recovery.
From time to time I will share my current experiences with issues relating to my past and let the readers in on what I face each day concerning that time in my life. This first post is simply an introduction.
Over the next few days, I want to share my testimony. What happened to me? How did it affect my life and how did I overcome the trauma? A close friend told me that this will be helpful to many others who are dealing with the same issues. I pray that what I write can bring hope to those of you who are struggling either in the midst of the abuse or in coming to grips with the memories of abuse.
Please remember that I want to help as much as a non-professional can help. If you are experiencing abuse, or are the loved one of someone who is being abused, tell someone!!! If you are a survivor or the loved one of a survivor, talk about it with someone you can trust, a close friend, a pastor, or a counselor. You are not alone in your pain, don't think no one cares. I do and many others do as well. Check the Yellow Pages or online for your nearest Crisis Center. The counseling there is free and totally confidential.
Dear Heavenly Father;
You created each of us with love and care. You made each of us special and unique. There is not anything that You do not know about us. I acknowledge that I do not understand why evil such as this still exists in this world, but I do know that You are still in control. I believe that even when horrible things happen to innocent people, You are not condoning that evil. I believe that You are there to sustain us when evil happens to us. You do not leave us alone and You do not punish innocents with evil. Why then does evil happen to children? I don't understand. But I do trust You. Your word tells us that you are a God of love and that You are love. Because of this You strengthen us through trials, but each of those trials is administered by You. You do not allow anything to touch us that You haven't given us the strength to endure. Lord, I ask you for that strength for all those who read this blog. I ask You to strengthen them to become victors over the evil. Lord, I ask for peace from all the trials...a respite and time of rest. Most of all I ask You to love them with Your unconditional love.