For many years I searched high and low for my "purpose". I prayed, sought, and begged for God to reveal His purpose for my life. I have gone places, read books, and sought people's advice. And I have grown and learned from all of this. However, I still didn't know my purpose. I thought I had found it a a few years ago and it was a good purpose. It was just not my purpose and that door soon slammed shut. That was it! I gave up. I decided to live each day, each hour, each minute. And a strange thing began to happen. God began to reveal to me things I didn't know I was searching for all this time.
First He revealed the words, "Live, Laugh, and Love" to me. That has become my motto. I try to live each day to the fullest. I make sure I laugh often and try to share that laughter with others. Thankfully, God has surrounded me with friends who love to laugh too. I also seek to share God's love and mine with family, friends, and those with whom I come into contact each day.
Next He revealed to me that my job as a church receptionist gives me so many opportunities to encourage others. I am usually the first person visitors see or callers hear. I realized that I represent Jesus to many people who do not know Him. My heart is to represent Him well.
He also allows me to enjoy my personal ministry of sending cards to whomever He places on my heart on a particular day. This is as much if not more of a blessing to me as it is to the recipient. A prayer ministry goes hand in hand with this as I lift up each name to the Lord as I write the cards.
A few years ago I memorized Psalm 37: 3-4:
"Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart."
I memorized it but I don't think I really grasped its meaning. During my quiet time one morning God revealed a wonderful truth to me. I may not always know my heart's desires but He does. He placed them there and He will give them to me in His time and way. That's such a comforting thought. I don't have to struggle. My responsibility is to stay in His word and in His presence. As His child His Spirit dwells within me. I can quench the Spirit or I can allow Him to be a living fountain of life-giving water that spill out of me onto others.
That, after all my desperate seeking, is God's purpose for me. To trust in Him, to good, dwell with Him, and most of all, to delight in Him. God may have a special purpose for my life as He did for Deborah, Esther, and Ruth. Maybe not as grand or glorious, but a purpose. However, I now realize that living each day, each hour, each minute in His presence as He leads is purpose enough. And if He does have a special purpose for me it is through these days, hours, and minutes that it will be revealed. This is such a freeing and life-changing revelation for me.