Ive often heard that God answers our prayers with one of those three....that He never just leaves us hanging. The trouble seems to come with how we understand His reply, specifically when it comes to deciphering between a "no" and a "wait." I've heard many say that we often give up waiting on God and we react as if we received a "no." We get impatient and we tend not to like or understand God's timetable.
How do we really know the answer to our prayer? Is it just that gut feeling? I've been told that if a God is telling me "no" to my marriage and my husband being saved, then I will feel a release. I don't know if this is true or not. I know I have not felt any release. I have instead felt like waiting. But the problem comes when I don't know, without a doubt, if that voice I hear is mine or His. I don't know if He really gives us a clear answer or if it's just a waiting game. But I must be honest, this waiting game seems harsh. When my heart is broken and I am lost and my husband is the lost sheep, the uncertainty and seemingly unanswered prayer seems....cruel. I am waiting for my Savior. But where is He? Even more so, my husband desperately needs His Father in Heaven.
My husband prayed for so long for God to help his parents. They never changed. They never came to Jesus. They never really even seemed to love their own son. He just wanted their love. He even wanted it for me. Now all has been torn apart and I cannot help but to wonder why God didn't answer his prayer. Instead, there is now a whole family in need of miracles and saving grace.
God, where are you? I am so worn out from shouting for you. I am exhausted from the constant prayer. I beg you, just like Jacob, come quick. Come quick and save us. We need you now.