Let me LOVE them through YOU
(My journey back to Father)
Saturday November 14, 2009
Father teaches us eternal life lessons through everyday experiences; I’ve experienced hate, resentment, lies being perpetrated against me falsely by my own, family; sisters, mother, husband, co-workers; all this because of Yahshua in me.
One night I stood at the window and gazed out into the dark night, as tears flood my eyes I wondered why do they hate me so much; I said Father, why do they hate me so much, why do they treat me like an outcast? Then Father spoke, he said, it is not you they hate, it is I the Lord your god, it is I in you they hate; they hated me before they hated you! If they hate me they will hate you also; if you were of the world they would love you, but you are not of the world said Father.
I don’t hate them, I am hurt by them; with my family constantly against everything I stand for, coupled with an experience with one of my children caused me to run to Father questioning my love, our love as saints towards Father, He open my eyes to the truth of what Love is, for LOVE is God/Yahshua.
I will try to write this experience as it transpired; Father showed me the pain he feels towards us, his own children, through an example of one of my own children; what and awesome God we serve, the things of the physical a reflection of the things of the Spiritual, as Father manifested his supernatural Love towards us in the physical flesh in the man Yahshua, God in flesh.
Father, I know just how you feel about us, just like my children, they only want to receive and not give, many times they don’t know how to give or receive love even when love is expressed towards them; Father it hurts very much when my love towards others is rejected, when other say and do things to me without a cause, it hurts.
Father allowed me to feel his pain; Feeling Fathers pain caused me to experience exactly how He feels when we reject his LOVE; moment by moment, day by day Father’s love is being rejected by many and it hurts him very much. Being hurt myself I cried, Father I am very sorry for all the times I’ve hurt you; I am sorry for all the times I have been indifferent towards your love for me; for all the time I’ve made you cry, I am so sorry Father. Father, cause me to love you; Father, how can an imperfect being such as myself, love a perfect God? Pour out your love in me, give me your heart so I can love you; I want to love you with all that I am, so I can love others too.
Father is in much pain because many times we are so cold toward his eternal Love; Father allowed me to feel his pain through this experience with my own child, I want you to know that loving others who’ve rejected your love is very painful as Father caused me to experience; if you’ve ever had that experience before, know that there are billions of us here who have rejected Fathers perfect love at one point or another, at times continue to hurt him through sin; Father’s heart is pained for us, yearning for us to love him back, for us to show him how much we love him through obedience of his commandments. Jesus said if you love me keep my commandments; the greatest commandment is, “Love the Lord with all your heart, all your soul and all your mind”.
Matthew 5:44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;
Father, pour out your love in my children, in others so they can learn how to love others too; Lord I am incapable of loving the way you love, cause me to love you, to love others the way you love us.
Love them for me, said the Lord. Falling on my knees I cried, how lord, how can I love them? I can’t! I don’t know how!
Love them when they hate you.
Love them when they despitefully use you.
Love them when they curse you.
Love them when they believe they are unlovable.
Love them when they are hurting and in need of my Love.
Love them when they say all manner of lies and hateful things against you falsely.
Love them when they give up being your friend.
Love them for me.
1 John 4:20: If a man say, I love God and hates his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen?
Luke 6:32; for if ye love them which love you, what thank have ye? For sinners also love those that love them.
On my knees before Father I cried, Father I need you to fill me with your love, because I can’t do this of myself.
Allow me to LOVE them through you, said Father.
Let me Love them through you, I in you and you in me.
Let me do the work for you, through you and in you.
Let me LOVE them through you, said Father
1 John 4:21 And this commandment have we from him, that he who loveth God love his brother also.
1 John 3:23; And this is his commandment, That we should believe on the name of his Son Jesus Christ, and love one another, as he gave us commandment.
1 John 4:7; Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God.
Proverbs 8:17 I love them that love me; and those that seek me early shall find me.
On my knees I cried, being humbled and broken by the outpouring of our Father’s love in me, I said, Father I feel so unworthy that you will want to love others through me; it is not you who is worthy, it is I the Lord your God in you, who is worthy, said Father;
your will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven, Father, be it unto me according to your will; I am your servant, I am your vessel, let it be done unto me according to your WORD, for I can do all things through Christ who lives in me and strengthens me; for it is not I that live but you live in me, doing the work for me, in me and through me; your will be done unto me on Earth as it is in Heaven.
I cried for hours, being humbled and broken by Fathers love, by his tenderness and longsuffering towards me, towards us. I felt so unworthy that He would want to love others through me; It is Christ in me/us loving others for his own glory and honor, doing the WORK for me/us and through me/us, perfecting me/us until Christ is formed in me/us.
One might think I am beside myself with excitement right now with this depts of experience of Fathers love, not so; I feel drained, I feel weak an unable, I feel unworthy, humbled, despised, and unloved by the people around me, friends are so distant at times; when I am weak he is strong; my faith is made perfect through my weaknesses.
Saints, the love of Yahshua in us simply humbles us, keeps us on our knees, causes us to be meek and lowly like Yahshua and because Yahshua is so righteous and holy, his love in us causes us to feel unworthy; I must die daily so that he can increase the more abundantly in me; we must give way to Yahshua so the Holy Spirit can come in and perfect us to the glory of our Father.
Father showed me that the way I am feeling is exactly how Jesus felt then and now. Despised and unloved by the world, even his very own rejected him. Love is not puffed up, it is not proud, it does not have enemies, it loves the unlovable; love is humble, it is meek and lowly, it is gentle and kind and it never stops loving even when others stopped loving it. WOW! How else could Father love others through me, through us, unless he first caused me/us to experience his LOVE; we must experience his hurts, his rejections, his love, his longsuffering his pain and loneliness; we simply must experience Yahshua in order to be like him, in order for us to be used of him; Him manifesting himself to us, revealing himself in us and through us.
Saints we must be willing vessels, having the desire for Father to use us for his honor and glory. I have prayed for some time now for Father to pour out his love in me; for him to allow me to experience his love; to know what it’s like to love like He loves; to have his love saturate my being. I must say, God ways are not our ways, He does not love the way we love; His ways is so much higher than ours; His love is unutterable, it is beyond the World’s understanding, His love is so much higher than ours.
I thought experiencing God’s love would be total bliss, an experience that will have me smiling for days, not so. Now that Father have answered my prayers, I have experienced his Love and it is nothing like I’ve expected. It is far above the love of the World, the world cannot, would not understand the Love of God. Father’s Love is pure, it is gentle, it is longsuffering, filled with compassion and forgiveness, it is meek and lowly, filled with pain and grief, it is simply Yahshua, God in flesh, bruised and despised for our sake.
I feel removed from this world, I feel weary and teary, filled with tenderness and very humbled. I am saying, Yahshua in me, humbles me, filling me with his tenderness, he has removed me far away from the ways of this World; Yahshua, my Savior and my God, my Creator and friend, my only true Love, my first Love is being formed in me to the point where I am dead to the flesh, to self, to the things of the World, causing me to be in perfect oneness with him; I in him and He in me, that where He/Yahshua is there I should be also, safely in the bosom of the Father, being made perfect in him.
1 John 4:17: Herein is our love made perfect, that we may have boldness in the day of judgement, because as he is, so are we in this world. (We must become like Yahshua, to love like him).
Father please, finish the work you have started in me; do a quick and complete work in me, for the things of this world have grown strangely dim; it takes every ounce of strength in me to go on in the physical; it is the Spirit of God who quickens, strengthens and uplifts me everyday.
1 John 4:12; No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfected in us.
1 John 4:16; And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God and God in him.
Folks look back at the journey of Yahshusa/Jesus when he walked the Earth; He was a man acquainted with grief; very meek and lowly in stature; many hated and despised him without a cause. He was and is filled with Love and compassion for all, even them that hated and crucified him he forgave. He loved all and will love all forever; love never dies, never. The Love of Yahshua humbles us it causes us to become quiet in spirit.
Our Lord and Savior Yahshua did not live a glamorous life on this Earth, he himself said the Son of man have nowhere to lay his head. Jesus did not have a jet or limo to take him around, he walked, sometimes for days to get to where he was going; while on his journeys on foot he healed the sick, cast out demons, raised the dead, calmed the sea, bring love and food to the poor and lonely. Yahshsua, the Son of God did not have servants doing his biddings, He himself came serving others.
He was zealous of Father’s LOVE, he himself being the expressed LOVE of Father suffering long for our sakes, it is not his will that any should perish.
Yahshua is not prejudice against any all has equal access to Him, rich and poor, male and female, free and bound, the elite and the nobodies, he allows all to come freely to him. God never changed, he is the same yesterday, today and forever; he desires for all to come directly to him, now, today; it matters not what you’ve done or what you are doing, Yahshua came to save sinners and this World is filled with them, you, me, we are all sinners in need of our Savior; when we repent and turn from sins Yahshua comes and fills us with his Holy Spirit, purifies and teaches us.
I have cradled you in my hands when as yet you were not born; I have put my breath and my love in you; I have set you free to love me, but you have not known me nor my ways; come to me, I will make myself known to you; I will reveal myself to you, come learn of me, my yolk is easy and my burden is light; come before it’s too late, come to me, this is the acceptable time of the Lord, I will wash you and make you whole; I will clothe you in my righteousness, come before it’s too late, said Father.
Isaiah 45:4: For Jacob my servant's sake and Israel mine elect, I have even called thee by thy name: I have surnamed thee, though thou hast not known me. ,45: I am the LORD, and there is none else, there is no God beside me: I girded thee, though thou hast not known me:
Saints, if we speak with the tongues of men and of angels and have not LOVE, we become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal; if we have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge; and though we have all faith, so that we could remove mountains and have not LOVE, we are nothing. The love I am speaking of is not our version of what we believe love is; the love I am speaking of is to have the Father’s LOVE poured out in us, we must be carriers of our Heavenly Father’s LOVE; we can only possess such LOVE when we received/belived the Truth (Yahshua is truth) of God and receive only him as our own TRUTH. God is LOVE. He has given us his love through Yahshua our Savior; we can choose either to reject Father’s Love through disobedience of the commandments, or we can choose to accept Father’s Love through obedience of his commandments.
Matthew 19:17 And he said unto him, Why callest thou me good? There is none good but one, that is, God: but if thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments.
John 15:10: If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love. (See we have to abide or have Father’s love in us through obedience of his commandments)