It is known that at a particular point in his life Thomas Aquinas grew silent and never wrote another word. He realized that everything he wrote (volumes upon volumes about God) were as nothing, because what he really knew about God was nothing.
We live under the illusion that we know God. But we don’t! We can’t! God is beyond our most brilliant thought processes. Thomas Aquinas realized the futility of writing about that which he could not know.
When I reflect on Thomas Aquinas’s decision and then look upon myself – who do I think I am? Of course, Thomas Aquinas did not stop thinking about God. He did not stop employing his magnificent mind in trying to know more about God. What he did stop was sharing his ideas with others. He realized the possibility that others, in knowing less than he about God, probably knew more. They knew more because they knew less.
It is another great paradox of the spiritual life that the thoughts of our greatest spiritual thinkers may be far from the actual knowledge of God. But the further paradox is contained in the avid thirst for that knowledge in each human being. We refuse to give up trying to know God and I believe this pleases Him greatly.
My own rationalization in writing these letters is that they help me keep You present in my life and they help me to focus on the relationship I wish to cultivate and nurture. My belief that You sometimes speak to me through them encourages me to imagine that they help me grow in the knowledge of God. The reality is that my “knowledge” of God is a construct of my own creation with (I like to think) some help from You. I must realize and accept, like Thomas Aquinas, that sharing with others what I think I know about God fuels a false conceit. Other than my own speculations, I don’t know any more about God than anyone else. Maybe we should concentrate more on accepting and loving God than on knowing Him. This works with people too!
I believe it is very important to be loving our Father, but it is of vital important that we know HIm also, because how can we some Him if we don't know HIm. Can you love and accept someone without first knowing them? To know him is to accept, to believe and to love Him.
Yes, we know in part, a very small part, seeing through a glass darkly,
Hebrews 8:11 And they shall not teach every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the Lord: for all shall know me, from the least to the greatest.
John 8:19 Then said they unto him, Where is thy Father? Jesus answered, Ye neither know me, nor my Father: if ye had known me, ye should have known my Father also.
Jeremiah 31:34 And they shall teach no more every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the LORD: for they shall all know me, from the least of them unto the greatest of them, saith the LORD: for I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more.
Jeremiah 24:7 And I will give them an heart to know me, that I am the LORD: and they shall be my people, and I will be their God: for they shall return unto me with their whole heart.
We might not and will never know everything about our Fathr in this life, but we must strive to get to know him everyday.