Worship is something that has changed my life in a big way. Worship had brought me out of a desert place in my walk. Where i was always thirsty clinging on to life. Searching for substanace a well spring of life full of The peace, love and Joyof Gods Holy Spirit. I felt through out most of my walk that i was chasing a mirage lost in a desert all alone. I learned in my walk that taking part of worship I had to empty myself. I had to let go of everything and step out of my comfort Zone. After I let go and stepped out of my Realm of comfort. I stepped right into Gods warm embrace. It was a spiritual experience and in it I was awakened to Gods love Joy and peace. I pray this word of testimony inspires and encourages others to explore worship. To be bold and find freedom to express your love to God expeariencing his love in a new found way. May our hearts be enriched in the Love of Gods Holy spirit God Bless!
What is worship? World Def- The feeling or expression of reverence and adoration to a deity. A true yet very vauge definition of what worship truly is. WHich encompases so much more than any words could accurately express. Instead of an academic presentation or defitition. I will simply share what worship is to me and the powerful impact it has had on my life. Worship for me like just about everything in my christian walk has continued to change over time. As I continue in my walk my understanding is consistantly evolving. God continues to paint a bigger picture before me as he opens my mind to new revelations. I once saw worship as a time to sing before God -Psalm 66:4 All the earth shall worship you and sing praises unto you; They shall sing praises to your name.) and a time to pray- Psalm 96:66 oh come, let us worship and bow down; Let us kneel before the lord our maker) As a youth in a small little southern conservative church worship was a time to be seated men on one side and women on another. We sang lifting up only our voices and kneeled praying out loud together the prayers the pastor spoke nothing more nothing less.
This idea of what worship was stayed with me for years. I wasnt raised in a Godly oriented home my experiences were far and few. My Aunt would pick us up occasionally on sundays and take us to any sopeacial events or camps the church did. It wasnt until I was 26 and my life had took a few hard turns that I felt a deeper desire to turn my life over to God. Thats when I moved to Los Angeles and joined the Dream Center Disciple training program. Doing so exsposed me to a whole new element of worship. Far from the traditional conservative ways i was accustomed to back home. Crowds of People were lifting there hands - 1 Tim 2:8 I desire therefore that the men praying everywhere, lifting up Holy hands with out wrath and doubting;) They were jumping up and down. It felt more like a rock concert than a church. However I knew God had placed me here for a reason. So I maintained an openmind and became accustomed to this form of worship. But heavy chains bound me keeping me from entering in. I was afraid, I felt foolish and who wouldnt I had every right to be. You know every person there in the sanctuary that day which was aproxly 1500 people. They had nothing better to do than concern them selves with what i was doing every one of them were watching me, judgeing me right? lol all i could focus on was what are theese people thinking do i loof stupid.
I was trapped in a pit of my own insecurities. It was too easy to justify my feelings than embrace the fear of stepping out of my comfortzone. "Get out of the Boat" How could I ever focus on Godto rise above the sea when my worries were given to the wind and waves arouns me. I had adopted a phrase I became very familar as I continued my christian walk. "I don't need to lift my voice, hands or sing and dance to enter into worship. God knows my heart I dont need to impress others....... The ending in this statement implies that there is a deep or hidden concern of what other people do think. Whether we admit it or not. I have said this my self and have heard this said by many other christians. Now there may be a small sliver of truth in that statement. However I clearly read in scripture -Ephesians 5:18-20 And be not drunk with wine, wherein is excess; but be filled with the Spirit;
19 Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord; 20 Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;)
That being said, I had left this place unsatisfied and it wasnt till a year later I found my self in Spokane Washington. In SPokane i began attending services at the Healing rooms ministry. Again I had found myself surrounded by an unfamilar style of worship. People of all ages men and women were dancing before the lord as if they were all aone. No one else was in that room only them and God. There was an open mic. on the floor. The band played softly on the stage. People walked up to the mic and shared a word as it filled there heart. Others sang quietly in what seemed another language. Still some danced with flags and silks while others played tamborines or softly beat a drum.- Exodus15:20 Then Miriam the prophetess, the sister of Aaron, took the timbrel in her hand, and all the women went out after with timbrels and dances.) I wittnessed something speacial as i sat quietly among them while they worshipped. I saw the love joy and peace of God in there eyes as if i was looking directly into there soul. What I had been searching for all my life was made manifest right before me in theese wonderful people of God. I understood something that day God had given me a revelation of the scripture in 2nd cor. 3:17 Now the Lord is the spirit and where the spirit of the Lord is there is freedom,)
There was a freedom in surrendering yourself completely to worship. A life changing world shaking freedom and revelation of Gods true love for me. I began to enter in slowly at first overcoming my insecureities. The more I let go the more at peace i felt with God. The more joy i felt in my heart. Finally i had found what i had been seeking for so long. A love that was beyond a mans understanding. God had broke the chains that kept me from the sweet waters that flow from the fountain of his spirit. I had tasted those waters and been filled-John 4:24 God is Spirit and those who worship him must worship in spirit in truth.) There is a spiritual connection which can not be established in the flesh- Rom 8:8 Those who are in the realm of the flesh can not please God) It wasnt till i was able to surrender my flesh releasing the bonds that held me. That I was able to let loose of my chains and tap deeper into a spiritual connection with Our Lord. Thus finding a Freedom I had never experienced in this world. We must constantly strive to surrender ourselves by laying down our lives in obedience to Gods word that we may live a life that is pleasing to our Lord. Rom 12:1 Therefore, I urge you brothers and sisters to present your bodies as a living sacrafice, Holy and pleasing to God, this is your true and proper worship )
There are many diffrent expressions of worship and all have an important part in our relationship with God. However "worship is not the songs that we sing. Worship is not the amount we place in the offering. Worship is not the time we spemd volunteering at the church. But its out of a heart of worship that we find freedom to express ourselves with love, adoration and praise that is pleasing to God whom we serve.