I grew up a Christian, but I didn't really act like I was. Doing all the wrong things and not living to the expectations. There were times where I felt like my relationship with God was going up and down. Every time I get stronger, something else pulls me back and causes me to fall back. I can't say that I am perfect. I can't say I can stop sinning. I can only say to look at Him as an example and see what He has done. He saved the world from condemnation, brought salvation, and even served others, because He lived not to be served, but to serve. Lately, I've been struggling with guilt and shame. Not knowing who I was. I am not as strong and as wise as I was a while ago. But I can say that I know deeply that Christ has never left me. And He will see to it that I will grow more in need for Him.
One of the biggest problems with "Christianity" today is we do NOT understand who we are in Christ Jesus. The first step ANYONE must do is get an understanding of WHAT is the word of G_d is and if you do then trust what is written in it. Take it as the final authority period. Stand on it. That creates faith in our lives.
For me personally it's the KJV, it's not perfect. It has mistakes but it can be easily translated with the assistance of STRONG'S concordance and Dr. Strongs numbering system. That said, I stand by the words written in the KJV with assurance.
In the book of ROMANS the apostle Paul, who died for his faith once wrote:
Romans 7: 15-18 For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I. 16 If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. 17 Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.
There is a war in your flesh raging against your spirit. Jesus said flesh gives birth to flesh spirit gives birth to spirit. You need to come to an understanding of how you are made and you need to come closer to Christ in prayer and by reading His word in order to conquer sin in your life. It's the same for all of us. There is no condemnation for those in Christ, if so be the spirit of G_d is then YOU are HIS indeed. For more info read my blog on the following: