In the first 20 years of being a christian I went through all of the phases from I'm saved and all of my problems will go away too I'm going to Heaven when I die no matter how bad life is. Both of which are true, but neither of which is the goal of salvation. Yes, Jesus took my sins upon Himself and took my judgement and punishment so that when I die I will go to Heaven not hell. And, as a believer (Son of GOD - Joint Heir with Christ) all of my problems go away. It's just the process of working out my salvation daily, which is dying to myself is painful and because it took me about 37 years to realize my part, slow. The true redeeming factor is GOD's Love, as Heb. 13:5b & 6 reminds us "For He Himself has said, 'I will never leave you nor forsake you.' So we may boldly say: 'The LORD is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?" (NKJV) Fear of man caused me to be a weak christian outside of church. Within the confines of the church I was busy and a good teacher. My family, friends, and co-workers knew I was a christian, but they also saw my sin nature, especially during the last 17 years when I was in rebellion. And GOD never left me nor gave up on me, Holy Spirit pursued me and Loved me and gave me opportunities to repent and yield my life. As I stated in my testimony, even during the first 20 years of my christian walk, I mostly walked my way rather than GOD's. I have missed many opportunities in life, but again the faithfulness of GOD is such that He is renewing those, restoring what was lost and what was stolen by satan's doomed kingdom. As a side note, satan is a defeated, created, rebellious being whose domain is defeated and doomed to eternal destruction and torment. So why did I let him trick, bind, and defeat me? Pride! From pride comes all other forms of sin as Andrew Murray says in his book Humility in chapter 1, "Humility, the place of entire dependence on God, is, from the very nature of things, the first duty and the highest virtue of the creature. In fact,it is the root of every virtue. And so pride, or the loss of this humility, is the root of every sin and evil!" So after 37 years of letting the devil mostly have his way in my life I am finally yielding spirit, soul, and body to GOD. Learning humility, dying to myself and do as Holy Spirit directs is a blessing, but it is a struggle. Something better learned while young. As I write in the future it will be about the things I am learning and the things GOD is revealing to me.