Letters to Jesus (Seeking Spiritual Connection) - 8
At Mass, all through our lives, we say the words at communion time: “Lord, I am not worthy that You should come under my roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed.” This, when meditated upon, is a remarkable expression of humility and, it is also a remarkable statement of faith.
My aim in receiving You in communion is a show of love for You as You give Yourself in love to me. Thus, it is a common union of love. It is heaven! – or at least a bit of heaven on earth. Union with You is what we constantly seek, and You know that. But, as in all things, love must be freely given. The will must make the choice. It would be great to be saved by Your simply saying the word. But You know that would eliminate our wills, our choices. In communion we make a choice. We willfully come to You and invite You, as You make Yourself lovingly available to us. God gave us a will to make sure our choices are our own and are freely given.
When we ask You to “say but the word” we are, in effect, asking You to override our wills. This is something in our relationship with You that You just won’t do; but within ourselves it does convey the humility and trust that dispose us to the union we seek, and of which, because of our flawed humanity, we are not worthy. We dowish to hear that word. We crave it. It is the guarantee we seek if only we could totally obliterate our selves.
There is some real insight in the consideration of the phrase: “Say but the word and my soul shall be healed” if we consider that we utter that phrase both to You as an expression of our humility and trust in You, and to ourselves as an expression of the fact that we must give our consent. We must say the word that allows You to save us.