Sins and faults for which I seek forgiveness in the sacrament of reconciliation, generally speaking, have become monotonous lists of the same things over and over again. You must be a bit bored (not to mention disappointed) to keep hearing the same old same old. You must wonder about my sincerity to reconcile with You and to amend my life. But I’m of the opinion that real sin for me is not on any of the lists of sins that I may see or make up. My real sins are far more subtle and insidious. They elude the lists.
When I examine my conscience I stick pretty much to the commandments, church laws, and works of mercy. I think that’s pretty much how I was taught so that’s what I stick to. But I am aware of many other subtler traits that separate me from You – sins that don’t fall directly under any of the commandments or laws.
What about arrogance? What, in my mind, separates me from others, separates me from You.
What about self-righteousness? Am I the measure of mankind? No, You are!
What about manipulativeness? Am I here to use others or to serve them as You did?
What about conceit and ego? Pride precedes the fall. It is the meek and humble You have called blessed.
Then there is my cynicism which tends to look upon people with a jaded eye instead of seeing the love that flows from You to them.
All of these are selfish things – things that center on me. Denial of self is the only solution.