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12:07 PM   [09 Apr 2013 | Tuesday]

Difference Maker

Reader,

     I've often been critical of our societ, our judicial system, and of our "criminals", people who at some point lost their way. It seems so often that once a person makes a mistake that takes away their freedom, they often never find their way back. Our society seems to perpetuate their life style and their behavior. A great many number of things cause this to happen. Many times the lost person gets used to the way of life behind bars and how it sustains their living. Upon their release they have no way of knowing how to function in society, nor are they able to find a job to support themselves. They still have their old connections, and their old "coping mechanisms" and the reality is on a often too regular basis, they end up back behind bars where they can funtion. We all do it, don't we. We see people trapped in that way of life and often very vocally become critical of their inability to live mistake free. We have no desire to interact, no pressing need to make a difference. I criticize the court systems for not "rehabilitating" them so they can step back in to their freedom and live. In my opinion, they so often are set up to fail once their life begins again. The return with the impossible task of finding work, and somehow trying to repair fractured relationships that are needed to survive in a healthy way.

Reader, I am that criminal. The Bible so often predicted of a Messiah, a Savior that would come to Save the world. It's easy to remember He came to save us from Death and Hell.The reality is that He came to save us from our sins, and more to the point FROM OURSELVES. I'm reminded of a Bible story I heard growing up. Jesus returned home to raise Lazurus from the dead. Upon completing this incredible feat, He commanded them to free Lazurus from his grave clothes. What would have happened if he would have lived his new found life trapped in those old clothes? His movements would have been restricted, he would have walked around all smelly, and I think it's safe to assume, he would have eventually died, unless someone cut a hole for him to eat. What kind of living would he have been able to do? What kind of living have I been able to do?

     On closer examination, I've lived my "new found life" that Christ gave me like a released criminal. One who lives in the shadows of his mistakes, unalbe to shake the man he was. I allow it to effect every part of my life. I carry it with me like a weight, and allow all to see it. It is my identity. A forgiven "criminal" I'm trapped in the way of thinking "this is just who I am" and "this is apart of me" etc; But is this what God desires? As I sit here now I think "someone come cut these clothes off!" I must look rediculous to the lost world around me. Flailing around as a semi spiritually awake being. Giving those around me a glimmer of the power of God, but something just doesn't "smell" right. I have not fully accepted and understood the meaning of what it means to be forgiven. It is recorded more times in the Bible that Jesus came to fix our broken hearts, and heal our wounds than it is that He came to save us. There is a way to be healed and not continuously make the same mistakes over and over again. Look at what He told the woman who was stuck in a way of living that she must have hated and desperately wanted to get out of. 

John 8: 11b

   I do not condemn you either, Go and sin no more.

WHAT!?! Is it possible. Are you like me and asking, no screaming at God "HOW!" I'm reminded of the beutiful book/play Les Miserables and John Valjean. At one of the early critical parts of the tale, he is struggling with identity, with himself. He has just been taught "he had a soul" and shown forgiveness and love. and He asks himself "is there another way to go?" He even descrives how he tries but fails as he is sucked into the "whirlpool of his sin" and then he says something incredible. He says "I'll escape now from the world, from the world of John Valjean. John Valjean is nothing now, another story must begin". And he did. I keep waiting for this Divine revelation from God that will transform me into this "new creature" that will not struggle so much, not make so many mistakes, that will understand and not be so weak. And that's how I spend my life. Waiting.

Today, I am going to try something new. I'm just gonna "escape". I'm reminded ot Joshua's encouragement to "choose life". I have to stop trying to "pay off" my debts and living restricted by my mistakes. I have to stop wating for life to begin and LIVE. It is that simple believe it or not. Live life as who God sees you, not how you see you, the enemy sees you, or the world sees you. Forviven means so much more than "get out of jail". Allow yourself to ask the question "who am I?" The Bible overflows with scripture after scripture of who we are. I like this song. It moves me. It may move you, and it definantly speaks the Truth. pull it up on youtube and listen to it with no distractions, and let it speak to your soul.  I am a DIFFERENCE MAKER.

Difference Maker by Need to Breath

Yeah ain't it just amazing
How a god can tend a broken man
Yeah let him find a fortune
And then ruin it with his own two hands
Oh isn't it amazing
How a man can find himself alone
Calling through the darkness
For an answer that is never known
He walks on up the hill
The rock on which he stands
Looks back at the crowd
Looks down at his hands and he says
I am a difference maker

Oh I am a difference maker
Oh I am the only one who speaks to him
And I am the friendliest of friends of god

Yeah isn't it amazing
How a man can find himself alone
Calling thorough the darkness
For an answer that is never known
He walks on up the hill
The rock on which he stands
Looks back at the crowd
Looks down at his hands and he says
I am a difference maker

Oh I am a difference maker
Oh I am the only one that speaks to him
And I am the friendliest of friends of god

Yeah I am on the fence about
Nearly everything I've seen
And I have felt the fire
Put out with too much gasoline
And we're all strangers passing through
Places one afternoon
And life is but a vision
In a window that we're peeking thorough
A hopeless conversation
With a man who says he cares a lot
It's a hopeless confrontation
About who might throw a punch or not
But we are all transgressors
We're all sinners
We're all astronauts
So if you're beating death
Then raise your hand
And shut up if you're not

Oh I am a difference maker
Oh I am the only one that speaks to him
And I am the friendliest of friends of god

I am a difference maker
Oh I am the only one that speaks to him
And I am the friendliest of friends of god

I am a difference maker
Oh I am the only one that speaks to him
And I am the friendliest of friends of god

Mood: contemplative
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