I was hoping for a miracle and healing in my life when I sensed I am not getting it yesterday, so I silently asked why ? Maybe God does not want to answer all our prayers . I thought getting all our wishes will eliminate faith or make us shallow. Unanswered prayer could lead us to two things: to lose faith or trust or for us to seek deeper in our relationship with God.
Sure enough I believe God revealed that I have a deep seated desire to be number one , to be the best at something. I resisted and tried to justify that there is nothing wrong with that desire.As I meditated further that desire to be no. 1 did not come from God . Being number 1 belongs to God, it belongs to Him because He is our Creator. Jesus who is God in the flesh or human form came not to be number one but to be in His Father's business and He said in Luke " the Spirit of the LORD is upon Him. He humbled Himself to be baptized by John and allowed Himself to be led by the Holy Spirit. And He came to minister and serve.
For us humans, I suggest that a better desire than to be number one is to follow Jesus and be happy and contented with what God assigns to us. How we do this will and is part of our journey. There is nothing wrong in being the best for God but it is different from being the best for ourselves.