I've just been reminded by someone very special that I am not so far lost to my sins that I'm unworthy to ask for your forgiveness and guidance. Please help me cope with the guilt I bear because of the pain that my life's choices may have caused. I ask that you place a comforting hand on the hearts of any and everyone I may have hurt along my path and help me genuinely express my hope that each person you and I know is worthy is able to live a happy life full of love, forgiveness, meaning and glory for you. Please help me show those in my life the sincerity of my resolve. To those I have wronged, either knowingly or unknowingly, in my 29 years of selfishness... Those I will never cross paths with again, I only ask that you bring a calmness upon their hearts and a knowledge that everything happens for a reason and that in the end it will work out the way your infinite wisdom determines...so long as we put our faith in you. Please help us to keep close to our hearts the fact that mistakes do not prove us unworthy beings. Help us keep in mind the good and sincere aspects of others so that we can forgive and start to heal ourselves.
Humans are such prideful creatures. We take others and love for granted. And when we are proven wrong we want to blame others and/or a magic wand to take us back. Please help us to keep in mind that it is the humbling experiences in life that bring the greatest glory for you. Life's harshest lessons in humility are often the greatest cleansers for the soul. When left to our own devices we weave webs of destruction and become so entangled in the delights of this careless world that we are not capable of freeing ourselves. Only your love can loosen death's noose. And when we accept that we can slowly become pillars, shining your light to others.
Please help me as I not only rededicate my life to you, but rather hand it over to you completely for the first time. You are the only one that can wipe my slate clean and I marvel that you designed your son's death to be sufficient to pay for every sin committed by those who trust in him. I thank you for the loving and kind hearts that you have surrounded me with. Thank you for proving me wrong about three special people. I seriously underestimated what wonderful people they are and I overestimated myself. Please help me rebuild the trust I recently lost in myself. Please continue to comfort and heal the hearts of those that I know are suffering and reveal your plans to them in a way that brings hope and peace.
“When God gets us alone through suffering, heartbreak, temptation, disappointment, sickness, or by thwarted friendship - when He gets us absolutely alone, and we are totally speechless, unable to ask even one question, then He begins to teach us.”