You give to me Yourself, Your love, Your graces and insights, Your friendship, Your hope, this world and its material blessings, my life, my skills and talents, my uniqueness, and so on, and so on. Why? I think there is only one answer: so I can convey them to others just as it is implicit in the Eucharist that I convey You to others. Our life is meant to be a giving of whatever we have been given. What the Father gave You, You gave us. The ultimate “self”-ishness would be not to do so. Like so many other simple truths of life, this one is easily ignored and even avoided altogether.
I find myself selfish about Your love. This is not as it should be; for You give it to me that I might pass it on. You whisper words of growth and insight and I store them up, buried in a hole so as not to lose them. The goods of this world are Your gift, and I hoard them selfishly for myself. My skills and talents are honed more for my own satisfaction than for others. All this totally misses the mark. You gave these to me that I might give them to others. I am, sadly, more apt to consider my own happiness and Your friendship as personal entities outside of my social or communal world.
Your love for us is characterized by unconditional giving, yet my love for You as well as for others is loaded with conditions. This hardly conveys the way You give to me and is tantamount to hiding my light under a basket or burying the money I’ve been trusted to invest.
Yet, there does appear to be a side issue in all of this concerning the one who chooses to remove him/herself from the world. How does such a one convey to others what has been given to him/her? It’s really no different. When God says, as He did to Adam (mankind), “Where are you?” the answer given then must be the same for us now, “I am here.” We present our presence to You. Our understanding that “we are here,” is fundamental to making ourselves available as a conduit. I am here that I might receive what You give and pass it on. Within a context of solitude and withdrawal from the world I am, possibly, more able to say, “here I am” more often.