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DEPRESSION CAUSED BY MEDICATION - A BUMMER BUT GOD ....

It happened and it wasn't suppose to. Just an aside - you know all that paper work you fill out at a doctor's office? Well, not any more for me. The last new doctor I saw never looked at one piece. He only looked at the records I brought that were someone else's opinion about me and my condition. To get back to the meat. This doctor has a list of my medications and allergic reactions as well as a long list of side effects from various meds. He told me he was going to inject two trigger points with lidocaine and depo medrol, which meant nothing to me and was not on my list. These trigger points were in my neck. The first one he injected reacted right away and disappeared. The second one was not as kind so he injected it a second time. It still was stubborn so he said I should come back next week but then remembered he would be on vacation.

I called the next day to find out how much and what he gave me so I could have my PCP do it the next week. That's when I learned the name and, of course, looked up depo medrol. It's a corticosteroid. I had cortisone on my list for the side effect of depression. I thought maybe this was different and I'd be all right.

I woke this morning and was going every which way but the right way. I called my PCP's office with a stupid question but the nurse was not avaiable and would call me back. I took my shower but forgot the hair conditioner! What a sight! My daughter called to dump her problems. I listened and advised as best I could. I finished with that and realized I was depressed. I got hyper but I didn't have the energy to deal physically with it so it attacked my mind instead. Not good.

I came across something God gave me to write at three o'clock one morning about dealing with stress. I began reading and following the directions. At one point I didn't know what to ask for and said so. He told me to read Bait of Satan by John Bevere. I began reading where I had left off and then the crying started. It was more than crying - it was crying out to the Lord, confessing, repenting. I exhausted myself. I was on my way to recovery. The steps He gave me worked. I fell asleep. I woke ready to prepare dinner and to eat, something I had neglected to do all day.

I will be very cautious about what gets injected into my body in the future and question extensively, if necessary, to be sure no more cortosteroids are used.

 

 

 

 

 

 

STRESS RELIEVERS

BREATHE DEEPLY - Slowly inhale and exhale using the diaphragm. Get more

oxygen to all of your cells. Expire more CO2.

REARRANGE OR INTERMINGLE THE ITEMS LISTED BELOW

ACCORDING TO YOUR NEEDS:

PRACTICE THE PRESENCE OF GOD - Talk to Him -

Thank Him for every blessing He has provided.

Praise Him for every attribute He has that comes to mind.

Rejoice in His presence.

Ask for what is needed according to His will.

Seek Him and His will for this time.

Sit on His lap and enjoy the comfort and love of Jesus.

Be that child again - think of how you feel being His, knowing

His tender, loving care for you, knowing He is in charge, submit

all, that’s ALL, cares and concerns to Him for He cares for

you.

PRAY FOR OTHERS - ask God who to pray for.

WRAP YOURSELF IN HIS LOVE - feel the warmth, the delight, the joy, the

comfort that only He can bring.

RECALL SCRIPTURE THAT HAS BEEN MEMORIZED - receive the Word

that will be perfect for you at this time.

CONFESS - tell God what lies heavy on the heart. Self-pity, guilt,

anxieties, misdeeds, lack of obedience, having strayed away,

purposefully harmed someone whether bodily, emotionally, or

through gossip, and/or any deeds committed or even thought

about that are contrary to the will of God.

CRY OUT TO HIM - SHED TEARS - when full of remorse, in need of

forgiveness, or need to forgive yourself or someone else, or need

to make amends, if the situation is sad, or there is anger,

hurt, disappointment, pain, feelings of hopelessness, rejection,

abandonment, loneliness, fear, or just plain miserable.

God desires His people to live full, abundant lives and has provided in His Word ways to make this possible. Being stressed out doesn’t help anyone do anything and it is not in His will for us to live in that state.

 

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A DOCTOR WHO CARES ABOUT THE WHOLE PATIENT? DOES THAT SEEM POSSIBLE?

I might possibly hold a record of some sort for seeing a large number and a variety of doctors. It's not something I'm striving for or proud of. I keep searching for the truth and it has been most elusive.

I had a marvelous PCP for fifteen years and then she left the area. I have spent ten years trying to find a replacement. My search uncovered a lot of not so nice things. I left one doctor immediately when I heard him dictating my thyroid was not palpable. It wasn't because he had been no where near it! Another doctor said he didn't know the answer to what I had asked him. "Hmm," I thought, "a doctor who can tell the truth. This might be the one." The next visit and the one after that I kept hearing the same thing and it wasn't the same question! Gone.

I stayed a bit longer with another doctor but left when he required you to come in for a simple prescription of a medication you had been on for years and would give only one or two refills. I couldn't afford the co-pays.

The next one was easily available and rather likeable. He sat me down one time and told me my illnesses were all in my head. He hadn't been the first doctor. Most specialists when they couldn't diagnose the neurological condition went immediately for IAIYH (Its All In Your Head) diagnosis. He was rather mean and nasty about it. He was replaced.

I had it with doctors in my area so I went outside the state! I found a DO who did OMT and was a PCP. I travel 50 miles one way every two weeks to see him. I was unhappy about a couple of things and spoke to a former doctor who had left his local practice and went 100 miles north to relocate. He said I should find someone local. He didn't like the idea that I was traveling so far to a PCP. However, he didn't have any suggestions.

I thought I'd stay two more visits with my current one and had made an appointment with someone close by for a new patient appointment. I didn't like the papers and the information about the practice that I received. I finally went to God and asked who should I see. Three times I asked and three times I got the same answer. Can you tell I didn't like the first answer? I was told to stay with my current PCP but he had an attitude that I had conversion disorder and thought I was clinically depressed. I disagreed with him and felt it tainted everything. I spoke to him about a swollen, hard, painful mass in my neck and he said we'll wait and watch. It's been well over two months. I finally talked him into an ultrasound, the results which I don't understand, but he is sending me to an ENT. I feel he could have done something sooner if he didn't have the idea IAIYH. Meanwhile I am suffering with a painful neck, ears, and head.

My last visit was different. I am beginning to see why God wants me to stay with him. In his very gentle manner, he said, "Now, before you get mad....." I didn't hear anything after that! It took a while to work that through and catch up with where he was going. I've asked him to write me a note about what he had to say after he told me not to get mad because nothing sunk in. I should be getting it this week.

He addressed some issues I have buried because there is nothing I can do about them. He made some suggestions and is willing to help me as a friend. His confidence in his viewpoint as to what I need and his willingness to help me as a friend have me thinking that there might truly be help here. We talked about spiritual, not religious, things. Our standards seem to be the same. When he went out the door, he told me he would not leave me. (I had expressed several losses in my life prior to seeing him when we spoke earlier.)

He's a year or two older than my oldest child, married, with three children, and a very gentle, humorous, spirit. He's being very kind and generous with his time to help me. He told me the healing God gave me of my emotions was only the beginning, not an ending. What encouragement! I need prayer. This will be a difficult but good learning experience!

 

Mood: happy, but nervous
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WHAT DOES THE BIBLE SAY ABOUT PHYSICAL EXERCISE?

As you can see by my picture, crutches are a part of my life and have been for six years.  So what's this exercise routine have to do with me? A lot.

I was reading in 1 Corinthians when these words came up off the page and whacked me in the face. "Like an athlete I punish my body, treating it roughly, training it to do what it should, not what it wants." The Living Bible

Being disabled for seven years and on crutches for six, I must admit I have enjoyed my swimming and that's about it. Three surgeries on my right foot, with a fourth just scheduled today for the end of March, have limited my walking tremendously. About six weeks ago I had a stiffening episode where my left leg stayed contracted for four hours. The pain since then has not really let up except for a synvistic shot in my knee which allows me to sleep through the night without pain. I have polyneuropathy in both legs with numb feet as well as Raynaud's and small fiber neuropathy and then there is foot drop along with muscle weakness. Sciatica kicks up with low back pain. That's just the lower extremities! I'm telling you this to show that exercise for me is not easy since I have to be off my feet to do it.

I found a DVD that's for Parkinson's patients and all the exercises are done sitting in a chair! Just perfect for me. All muscles groups seem to be included. The instructor is pleasant. I like the music and the exercises. So what's my problem?

Actually it's not one problem. The biggest is discipline! I haven't yet learned to set time aside each day or to make it a priority. The days I have done them, I have overdone - done far too many for this body that is in a weakened state. When I overdo, the pain gets to be too much so I stop for a while until things calm down. Yes, then I'm back to trying to motivate myself to start up again. Well, I managed to do that and decided to not lift the weights this time and to stop the repetitions as soon as I felt tired. I still overdid. Pitiful!

I am not giving up, but I'm going to try to do just one of each exercise perhaps three times a day and then every other day for a week and see how I make out. I've decided to use muscle cream and joint cream and take pain pills during this trial and see what that does to help me establish a routine.

The excuses I have fed myself in the past and my lack of effort have put me in this position of weakness and I'm too young to be here! I have work to be done and without some strength to help God help me, I won't be the fruit bearer I want to be. I have allowed my pain to take over where my brain was unable to see or come up with a way of escape - but for God and His Word!

I won't be acting like a fifty year old but I don't want to be acting like a person who is well beyond my years and who has given up. I want to be vibrant with God's love, energizsd to do what He has called me to, and physically fit as I can be to enjoy the work He has for me. This verse really shook me up in a good way. The second part of the verse did its share in stirring me into action as well.

   "Other wise I  fear that after enlisting others for the race, I myself might be declared unfit and ordered to stand aside."

I want to be part of the action and do what I am capable of doing despite physical handicaps. Perhaps you aren't handicapped in the ways I am, perhaps you're in worse shape than I am, or maybe your health is great - whatever our situation, this word still applies. We all need to do our share to help ourselves.

Mood: psyched
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A God Who Really Cares.

     Without ever dreaming of asking or even thnking about it, God blessed me a year and a half ago by sovereignly healing my emotional life from before birth to 65! The joy and growth has been remarkable.

     My life has not been all mountain top experiences since. I have had to learn and practice what I've been taught. It takes discipline and a fantastic gratefulness for what God has done to persist through the trials and come out victorious.

     Many of my emotional problems centered around physical problems and/or even vice-versa. The concentration on physical problems since being declared disabled from my teaching job seven years ago has occupied my life like a full time job. I have probably clocked more hours in doctors' offices than most doctors!

     My physical problems have run from relatively average Hashimoto's thyroiditis to an undiagnosed neurological problem that was the final straw in my teaching career. God has given me an amazingly complex set of issues that can easily bring any doctor down on his/her knees if they really desired to help me, but instead they cower and tell me IAIYH - it's all in your head. Somatic illness is an easy copout as the symptoms are so general they would fit any illness!

     Since my emotional healing, my physical stuff hasn't had the importance it once had. I still question doctors and fire them on a regular basis as soon as the IAIYH diagnosis comes up. I used to fall for it to a degree before my remarkable healing, but since that time I know that I know there is a definite physical cause and what brought that on is of no importance. The important thing is how to help it.

     Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. His name has helped me through pain and struggles with the old nature which thrived on depression. Today I saw a doctor who spoke kindly in a manner that I understood to be truth from what I studied about that part of my body. I had seen two other doctors who, he said, were not doing right by me which I already knew but needed to hear the truth.

     I walked out of there happy. On my drive to my next appointment, not a doctor, the doubts began to assail my head. I felt a cloud, a heaviness I knew was not God. It was a battle that lasted well over an hour. "That doctor didn't address this or that. How do you know what he told you was true? You didn't have a chance to tell your whole story. He read off a doctor's report. What are you going to do now?"

     God allowed me to struggle until He started planting seeds in my heart - seeds that had been sown before. "You can trust me. Give it to me. I will give you peace. You have the victory - take hold of it. Praise me. Sing with the worship tape. I will take care of you."

     He's right here with me now. Even as I write this I feel a bit of a struggle going on, but stronger is His presence. I know He loves me. I know I can depend on Him. I know the victory is mine because of Jesus. I know I have made a change, that I have grown a bit more today. My love for my Father is more than it was. Even when it doesn't seem possible, there is more love being poured into me so I can absorb it, pour it back and out. His caring about the little things in my life always blow me out of the water. His help and teaching today are so precious.

     He's been taking doctors out of my life and replacing some of them with the finest of the fine. The number of doctors has dwindled and that is good. That means fewer appointments and a whole lot less confusion by seeing inapt doctors. The physical is slowly getting out of focus while the trust in Him and His plans for my life is getting much clearer. He has increased my joy and my outlook is bright.

Mood: cheerful
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Life Can Be Overwhelming. Stress Can Be Destructive to Physical, Emotional, and Spiritual Health

STRESS RELIEVERS

BREATHE DEEPLY - Slowly inhale and exhale using the diaphragm.          Get more oxygen to all of your cells. Expire more CO2.

REARRANGE OR INTERMINGLE THE ITEMS LISTED BELOW ACCORDING TO YOUR NEEDS:

PRACTICE THE PRESENCE OF GOD - Talk to Him -

        Thank Him for every blessing He has provided.

        Praise Him for every attribute He has that comes to mind.

        Rejoice in His presence.

        Ask for what is needed according to His will.

        Seek Him and His will for this time.

        Sit on His lap and enjoy the comfort and love of Jesus. 

        Be that child again - think of how great it is being His, knowing His tender, loving care, knowing He is in charge, submit all, that's ALL, cares and concerns to Him for He cares for you.

PRAY FOR OTHERS - ask God who to pray for.

WRAP UP IN HIS LOVE -  feel the warmth, the delight, the joy, the comfort that only He can bring.

RECALL SCRIPTURE THAT HAS BEEN MEMORIZED - receive the Word that will be perfect for you at this time.

CONFESS - tell God what lies heavy on the heart. Self-pity, guilt, anxieties, misdeeds, lack of obedience, having strayed away, purposefully harmed someone whether bodily, emotionally, or through gossip, and/or any deeds committed or even thought about that are contrary to the will of God.

CRY OUT TO HIM - SHED TEARS - when full of remorse, in need of forgiveness, in need of forgiving yourself or someone else, in need of making amends, if the situation is sad, or there is anger, hurt, disappointment, pain, feelings of hopelessness, rejection, abandonment, lonliness, fear, or just being plain miserable.

God desires His people to live full, abundant lives and has provided in His Word ways to make this possible. Being stressed out doesn't help anyone to do anything and it is not in His will for us to live in that state.  

Mood: None, or other
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